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I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
@Jynx, I am hoping to see a psychiatrist soon, just need to make sure the pdoc is taking new patients since many of them aren’t. I’ll call up again when the week starts, have GP appointment on Wednesday. I will hopefully get blood test results soon too. I think h pylori test might take a bit longer to get back. I just hope I get relief soon, survival mode is hard.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Snowie maybe a bit better emotionally than the morning, but my stomach pain has worsened, waiting for meds to kick in. Hope you are doing well today 💗
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SnowieSenior Contributor
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@creative_writer hoping the pain meds kick in soon.
Just sitting here watching a bit of tv with the cooler on. Quite hot here today.
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer I saw a meme once that was like 'adult life is like playing a video game where you skipped all the tutorials and are now just fumbling around trying to work out how to play.' I think adding trauma history to that is like playing the game on ultra-hard mode! 😓
Hope you can get swift results and don't end up having to play the waiting game too long. 🤞💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Snowieit’s warm here too, just lying in bed right now, still in pain, maybe the meds need to be taken consistently for a while, after all one box lasts 30 days.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx life is a confusing video game. I’ve grown tired of waiting, I really want to feel better soon. I think complex trauma pretty much complicates other mental health issues and vice versa.
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JynxModerator
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Better can take a while, and it's usually not a straight line either @creative_writer . But I can see you're doing the work, I hope you see the benefits soon xx
💜🤗
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx it’s hard. I feel like I got worse sometime last year, things went out of whack. MH issues are a really lonely battle and I feel hungry for hugs, yet when I get one, it’s not satisfying. My stomach pain isn’t helping either. I feel like I should eat something since I haven’t eaten for a few hours but I’ve lost my appetite. 💖🤗
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tymeModerator
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Hi @creative_writer !
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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Hi @tyme. I hope you are doing well and keeping cool. It’s been a warm day today.
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