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Struggling: TW suicide

Struggling: TW suicide

I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I'm glad you went to the pathology. I hope you feel better soon @creative_writer . Any physical pain can make mental health worse.

Please be careful when mopping. Hope you don't have to do it when you are feeling light-headed.

Anything else you have planned for the day?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@tyme I don’t think my mum will let me mop right now, she knows I am feeling sick. Nothing much planned for today, but there is a lot for Tom since we are having guests over. Do you have plans for today or the weekend?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I'll be on the forums on Sat and Sun this weekend. I'll also have some time in the pool on Sun because i think it will be over 30 degrees 🙂 So nothing major planned.

Any occasion that guests are coming? @creative_writer ?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@tyme, yeah, the weekend will be warm. Pool sounds nice :). We just have distant relatives coming over for brunch.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

Enjoy! Do you cook @creative_writer ?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@tyme I’m not cooking this time. I don’t really cook elaborate dishes, I keep it simple, particularly with how I’ve been feeling lately. Do you enjoy cooking?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

Hey @creative_writer read your post about not wanting continue with the referral to acute care team, but was waiting to see my case manager and didn’t have time to reply.

id really encourage you to at least give it a go and see how it works for you… that’s if they accept you. If it’s anything like my local one, they can provide so much support. I started with them and originally just had a psychologist, who is amazing. But she seen that I needed more support than just my weekly appointment with her and she is only in 3 days so wasnt really able to provide additional support outside my appointment times. So she referred me to the case manager team also. I was allocated a case manager, who referred me to participate in the sensor modulation course, I participated in a 15 week DBT course and I also see a psychiatrist attached to the case manager team monthly. On top of all that I have the opportunity to participate in a 12 month DBT course, which I am considering. If things are really bad, they will do weekend home visits too and there is always someone that I can call and talk to until like 9pm at night 7 days a week. I currently see my case manager twice a week, but was seeing her 3 times a week at one point.

So, in saying all that, if you can make it work, give it a go!

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

That's really helpful to hear it from you @Bow - thank you so much for sharing your experiences.

@creative_writer - I don't really cook. I can. But I choose not to. It's not cooking that's the issue, it's cleaning. I hate cleaning after - the fat, grease, pots, pans, knives.... that's the part I don't like!

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

Hey @creative_writer

Im with @Bow with this.

My GP referred me and that is how I have my nurse. That I can contact via email at anytime or call with in business hrs. Just this week she has seen me twice and has made an appointment for Monday and Thursday. But if I need more she will be available. My psychiatrist is through her as well. All psych apps are between the three of us. I feel so helped and supported with them. There is also a 24/7 number I can contact if I need and they assist and email my case manager that I’ve been in contact. My records are available to all of my team so I don’t have to keep going over everything.

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Yes I love that records are all shared too @Captain24! Even the hospital ones are shared cause it’s all part of NSW health, no worrying about everyone getting my discharge summaries. If I share something with my psychologist, my case manager or psychiatrist will usually know about it… and if I need to call after hours they can also access it too. So good that I don’t have to repeat everything!

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