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Struggling: TW suicide

Struggling: TW suicide

I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@Snowie strawberry farm sounds nice, I would love to go to one. I lived off strawberries as a baby. When we went overseas, my uncle had to find strawberries for me because I was a fussy eater. I might be getting some tests done at the pathology, preparing for Saturday and will take a longer shower tom since it’s wash hair and exfoliation day. I didn’t do much today and was a bit unwell and a final clean is still needed after the door maintained is complete since the house keeps getting dusty.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@Snowie do you have plans for Tom?

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I have ECT tomorrow morning @creative_writer

Won't get home until after lunch from that. Hubby drives me in and brings me home since I am not allowed to drive when I have it.

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@Snowie I hope ECT goes well. I do hope you get relief, it does sound like things have been really rough for you.

💖

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I don’t think I can go ahead with acute community mental health team referral.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

Why? @creative_writer Because of family?

This is what helped me soooo much when I needed it most. Why don't you put the referral in, and if you get accepted, take it. If they don't feel you need it, then leave it? Put it this way, they don't keep you under their care unless they feel you will benefit.

I've been under their care. It certainly gives more room for support.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

Oh, forgive me for being so rude. I should've said Hi to you first @creative_writer ! I've missed you and our awesome chats. I'll be on until about 5pm today, so I hope to be able to chat till then!

And sorry for being so abrupt with my last post. I just really want what's best for you at this time.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

hi @tyme

I hope you have been well. It’s all good.

I don’t know how I could see them without letting family know. They are not doing Telehealth appointments so it needs to be in person. So that sort of leaves me in a place where I feel like I can’t reach out to them. They said I can call back if I want any support from them in the future.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I'm so sorry to hear. Please know you can reach out to them in the future. That's what they are there for. For me, I had to make sacrifices and take risks in order to begin my recovery. @creative_writer

Do what you feel right in your time. As long as you know the service is there.

I'm still here to support you. 🙂

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

@tyme there are still there, I can have a think about it over the weekend too. Not need to rush things. Just went to pathology this morning and had to fast. Feeling really ill now too. My body has been weird lately. Migraines, stomach pain, heartburn. I should be able to take the antacids now at least since test is done. I sure hope I can do my mopping floor part, feel so lightheaded right now.
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