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creative_writerSenior Contributor
I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
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tymeModerator
Short answer? For me, yes. I can't say I'm depressed...nothing like what it used to be. @creative_writer
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
Are you reading anything at the moment? @creative_writer Or writing poetry?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
I am creative @creative_writer , but I'm not sure about creatively 'expressing myself'. I'm more into innovations. I guess I'm a very goal-focused person. If I think something needs to be done, I use my creativity to come up with a solution.
The more difficult part is that when I do create paintings, diamond art, poetry etc, I really don't know what to do with them, and so I end up getting frustrated that I've 'wasted time'. For me, completing projects is as far as I get to help be feel content and satisfied.
It's hard to explain....
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
@tymecreativity can be expressed in different ways. It’s not always an artistic form of expression. My mum has suggested publishing my work but never really tried to nor do I have a blog or anything. I’ve pretty much kept most of my poetry unseen by the world. I guess it’s like journaling in a way, I can use it to express the depths of darkness. I rather the world didn’t know about my suicidality. I’ve written poems during mania too. I remember not being able to sleep and I started writing a couple of poems simultaneously like I was insane.
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tymeModerator
Yes, @creative_writer , that's why I found it hard to answer the question. I know I am creative in many ways in terms of thinking outside the box, but to actually make a product is a different story.
I have thought many times to write a book about my MH challenges and journey... There's so much I want to share with the world, yet I know I need to be mentally ready for it. Once again, being goal-focused, this book is aimed at helping others. It is not aimed as a form of self-relief or therapy.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
I actually thought so too @creative_writer - I never thought I could speak about my upbringing. Yet I have. I say straight out that I come from a very conservative background where MH was a taboo. It was the hidden thing that no one dare speak about.
I have delivered this message internationally, and continue to do so.
Once day, maybe you will also find your voice.
I'll be logging off for the evening. I hope to catch you sometime over the next few days.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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