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Did it again and feel stupid

ArraDreamingSenior Contributor04 July 2022, 9:07 am AEST

Did it again and feel stupid

I did it again last night, I couldn’t sleep so got out my phone and ended up pretty much doom scrolling through old messages and emails from years ago.

I don’t know why I do it, but every time I do it I feel physically sick shame and guilt. I was so unwell years ago and such an awful person to interact with.

I can’t even put it into words, it’s embarrassing how poorly I behaved and communicated with people who only had my best interests in mind. But I was just so far gone that anything anyone did I was aggressive. What the hell.

I feel sick. And there is nothing I can do, I can’t contact these people anymore. But I also can’t stop going down to this vortex of pre 2020

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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor05 July 2022, 9:35 pm AEST

Re: Did it again and feel stupid

I don’t know why I keep doing this it’s like I can’t help myself

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Unknown userMember05 July 2022, 9:42 pm AEST

Re: Did it again and feel stupid

Hey @ArraDreaming, just wanted to check in on you. Is everything okay over there?

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ArraDreamingSenior Contributor05 July 2022, 9:46 pm AEST

Re: Did it again and feel stupid

@Former-Member Yeah, just pulled out some of those docs again, was a bit painful

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