I can’t cope

Sorry that you are still feeling really flat today @Captain24

Hopefully when you are there and doing it, the motivation comes back a bit.

I worry too that I will forget things when I get home. What is the point in going to groups if I just forget what I learnt. I think these are normal thoughts to have. Thats why I normally take notes in groups and keep the handouts. I found that really helped me remember things. It's great if you have leaflets from the groups, much easier to remember that way.

It is really good that you have come to accept those things hon. Sometimes the hardest thing is accepting what happened to us and not blaming ourselves.

I really hope your day goes well

Hey @Captain24 proud of you that you have accepted all those things. I hope it helps in your recovery and makes things a little bit easier and things start moving for you.
hope today starts picking up for you too

I struggled to get myself to the pool session today @Snowie @Bow. But I did it and the gym session. I’m kinda regretting that now though! 😜

One of the facilitators has aboriginal cards. They aren’t tarot cards but it’s kinda like them where you pick three cards and they have different meanings. Past, present and future. It was amazing I had my own interpretation of them but the book confirmed them. They were so true and I have hope that the future one was right.

So while I’m still struggling I have found a sense of peace in those cards.

Hope you are both doing ok?

Well done for making it to the morning sessions @Captain24 That shows a lot of strength especially since you were hesitant on going.

Glad you have found a sense of piece in those cards. Anyway we can find a sense of piece is well worth it.

I hope this afternoon classes go ok for you

I zoned out in group and the facilitator had to bring me back. It was the emotional regulation that I lost the focus in. I’m really embarrassed.

No need to be embarrassed @Captain24 It happens to all of us at times.

There were a few times where I lost focus or zoned out in group situations.

It was great that the facilitator could bring you back into the group and also great that you were able to bring yourself back. Don't forget they might have been there but you were the one that put in the hard work.

Thanks @Snowie

I didn’t see the Pdoc as she wasn’t in. She usually only does Mondays and Fridays so I guess I won’t see her before I leave. I’m really disappointed. I had so much to tell her. The realisations that I’ve come too. Plus this is stupid but I wanted her reassurance that I can make it to Friday. It’s getting so hard. But at the same time I’m scared to go home. I’m just f’ed up!

One of the girls is out of control drunk. An ambulance has just arrived.

How does that happen in there @Captain24 ? Do they go on leave and buy stuff?

I don’t know how she got it in. @Bow It is pretty relaxed here though. People order Uber eats and door dash so nothing is really checked. It’s on an honesty system kinda thing.

One of the nurses has tried to help regulate me. She took the time even though she had to sort out the whole issue inside after the ambulance left. My breathing has settled and my heart rate is slowly coming down.

Im sitting outside in the rain.

I have been really slack and not following along but I did just see that you are in hospital. I hope you get what you need.