I can’t cope

You are not being miserable @Captain24 You are just expressing how you are feeling. That is perfectly fine to do.

I didn't always feel comfortable with the nurses I had. Hopefully tomorrow you have some nice ones on again. I find it always a bit hit and miss.

S doesn't finish work until 10:30pm. H has been out fishing and drinking today so I will have to stay up and pick him up. On a good note, H brought home some flathead he caught and cooked it up for tea. Was yummy 😁

He came in and told me I could take leave to go and see my dogs @Snowie. When I told him it was 4 hrs away he said I could do a day trip! He also said to make connections with the others tonight. There is no common room or anything. We are just in our rooms. [edited by moderator] Plus he didn’t give me all my meds!

Sorry..

Dinner sounds good. You can’t get it any fresher! Do you fillet it? 10:30 is going to be a while!

Well that sounds a bit unrealistic @Captain24 I'm sure you would love to see your dogs but 4hrs away is a long way. I never would have been allowed to take that much leave.

I found it difficult to connect with others and stayed in my room a lot.

Is there another nurse you could speak to about what is happening and especially about your meds? It is really important to get the right ones.

I didn't fillet it, Hubby actually did, coated it and then cooked it. All I had to do was eat it!!!

Yes 10:30 is still awhile away but at least it is a specific time. D used to get off work at different times depending on how busy they were. I used to just have to wait for a phone call. At least now she can drive herself home.

Im not allowed to drive and I have groups, so it’s not actually possible and they wouldn’t give me that long either. @Snowie. I sorted out my meds. I’ve been connecting it’s just not possible at night. Another nurse came in to do her checkin rounds and she said to have a camomile tea. Hopefully someone decent is on tonight!

Did he wash up to? Or was that pushing it.. 😜

That must have been hard with D. A finishing time makes it so much easier.

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

I'm glad you were able to sort out your meds @Captain24 Hopefully you do have some nice nurses on tonight and that the tea is calming for you. I'm having a cup of tea now also.

I know you have been connecting with others during the days. It is great that you have been able to do that. You have shown so much growth since you have been in there.

Hehe, the dishwasher did most of the washing up, but he did do some with my assistance!!

He kept the kids fed for 4 weeks whilst I was in so he does a pretty good job overall.

Not much planned for tomorrow. I have my pdoc appt. in the afternoon. First time I have talked to him since I was admitted, so assuming it will be a fairly long appt. I am hoping he has already read my discharge summary.

Any good groups on tomorrow?

Hopefully he has it and it’s a good appointment @Snowie. I’m not sure how all this goes when I get out.

He sounds like a pretty good husband.

I’ve got the pool and the gym in the morning and the groups tomorrow afternoon are on emotions and emotional regulation. Sounds intense!

He had my discharge summary last time I was admitted so hoping he has it this time too @Captain24

He is a wonderful husband/father. I am thankful everyday for him. He supports me through all of my MH journey.

Those groups do sound intense but hopefully your get something out of them.

Hopefully the pool and gym and nice to start with.

Time for me to go to bed. D is picking up S from work so at least I get to go to bed earlier 😁

I hope you get some sleep tonight too and tomorrow works out well for you hon.

Will check in on you tomorrow. Sending lots of love hon 💕💕

Hi @Captain24 , there was a bit to catch up on - glad that you were able to do your mindfulness session on Saturday. Also that your psych stayed back and talked to you and gave you a hug!

I hope your psychiatrist appt goes well today, also the groups on emotions and emotional regulation.

Thinking of you...

Hi @Captain24

Just checking in on you today hon.

Hoping the day goes well for you.

Sending lots of love and hugs 💕💕

Hi also @NatureLover Wishing you a good day today too hon 💗💗

Hi @NatureLover @Snowie

Im still feeling really flat today. No energy and no motivation. I don’t even feel as though I want to go to the pool and water is my happy place.

There is so much information running around in my head. I’m scared I’m going to forget it when I get home. But I do have all the leaflets that they have given me so I will go through them all.

I have come to accept that I didn’t deserve my SA. I put myself into that situation but it shouldn’t have happened. Also I didn’t deserve to be treated the way I was and am by my parents. No one deserves that. I also accept that I have PTSD and that it stems from a lifetime of emotional abuse.

Anyway that’s deep for this hour of the morning.

I hope you are both doing ok?