I can’t cope

Hearing you @Captain24

Happy to listen and sit with you.

Is there someone you can talk to about how you are feeling?

Hey @Captain24

I've just sent you an email to check in on your safety.

I'm here to chat if you needed. What are you up to right now?

❤️

Thanks @Snowie @amber22.

I have been for a 2 hr walk to the beach. We walked through the water and sat and watched it for a while.

I got back here and didn’t feel comfortable to come in. It’s a bit sad. The gym instructor copped me, I unloaded on her. She went and got me help. There is a new girl that is causing it all. They are re-speaking to her about the boundaries of sharing trauma. She has leeched herself to me. I’m just too nice. I was trying to welcome a new person so I guess it’s my fault.

I don’t want to go to groups this afternoon as she has been put into our group. They are looking to see if they can change her group.

My ‘friends’ and the nurses are looking out for me and are going to help me set boundaries around contact with her. So that I can try and put some distance between us. The girls in here are amazing.

They have just come and got me to look after me for lunch.

Wow @Captain24 you certainly have had a full on morning. Hopefully they can sort this other girl out. Regardless of how nice you were, no one deserves that.

Well done however for speaking up hon and getting help. You should be proud of yourself.

Thinking of you today @Captain24 . I hope the afternoon was ok for you and the group is a comfortable place for you to be. The personalities in hospital can be very challenging at times and its hard to focus on our own recovery when we see others around us who are also unwell.

I hope this evening is comfortable for you.

I walked out of groups as I knew the story behind her ‘broad brush stokes’. It triggered me too much. There was 2 facilitator’s so one followed me out. We talked for a bit and she is going to give me some paperwork about asserting boundaries so it may help me.

I’ve just signed myself out for leave. I ran up into the bushland [edited by moderator]. I could hear my heart pumping. I’ve had to come back out as I was getting lost. So I’m sitting at my car. They don’t know where I am and I like it like that.

The girl has backed off so I’m guessing that she was spoke too. But I still don’t feel safe in there. I guess I have to work through it. I can’t let some triggering bitch ruin this for me. I have to get over myself.

Sorry for my rant.

@Captain24 rant as much as you want. We are here to support you through all of this.

I'm confuzzled @Captain24 ...sorry.

So they said something that triggered you? Did they do it on purpose and that's why they were spoken to?

Hi @tyme

Sorry I’ll try and unconfuzzle you.

A new girl came in last night. She dumped a lot of het trauma on me. She leeched herself to me. She triggered me and I don’t usually trigger easily. I was just trying to be nice and welcoming. She is in my group.

I talked to the gym instructor today and told her and told her I didn’t feel safe in here anymore. She went to a nurse and the nurse came and saw me. They were going to re-establish boundaries and guidelines.

We set guidelines in groups about ‘broad brush strokes’ but as she talked about her stuff it sounded ok to everyone because she was very broad with what she said. But I know what was underneath what she was saying so it was just really triggering. But no one else got it. The facilitator was really good and supportive though.

Does that help with unconfuzzling?

Thanks for letting me rant @Snowie. I’m really trying in here. I want to get the most out of it as I can.