I can’t cope

I hope so @Captain24 , when I started talking to people it really got the ball rolling for me, hoping for the best for you.

@tyme I just recently got medication because I only got a bipolar diagnosis at the end of last year haha

Go for it. That's what they're there for. @Captain24

What a relief @Acanthiza ! You must have been wondering all these years what was going on, only to now be told you have bipolar...

Mine was sort of the opposite. I was told I had bipolar, took meds for a decade, only to be told by the hospital that I didn't have bipolar and was taken off the med immediately.

So I’ve had a chat and I’ve handed in things that I can hurt myself with.

She made me not feel like a child with my thoughts that are from my childhood.

She told me that with the work here it will help me start to heal. It’ll make it easier for me in the future. I’ll be able to see me slipping and have the knowledge to stop it or slow it down. I have to trust the process.

Anyway…how are things with you @tyme

Thanks for being around.

Good on you @Captain24 .

So proud of you. You did the right thing.

Right by you and right by them.

I believe in you. I know you can do it.

So Ive just been swimming. It’s the first time in nearly 20 years that I have swum a stoke. I’ve done aqua aerobics but not actually swum. It was really good plus I went for a walk this morning to get a hot chocolate. Next up is the gym. These things are compulsory. I’m not sure about the gym though.

I have progressed a little today. I still want to just bail and go home but I have to tell myself I’m not a quitter. The urge to hurt myself has lessened though.

I don’t have the need to go and sit on my car. Yesterday it was my way of escaping. My link to home.

Hey @PizzaMondo

I went to the gym. The instructor was fantastic. I was borderline panic attack. She managed to calm me down and gave me a simple mindfulness task. She talk me through the anxiety. Yes I have left early but I’d had enough. She checked that I was leaving because it was enough or because I was running away. I didn’t run!

Im going to have a shower and wash my hair so I might be able to feel good about myself. Big step after last night! Plus I really need to do my legs. 😜 Big step from last night to ask for it

Ive got groups this afternoon so I’m hoping I can get through them too. I also have a Pdoc appointment sometime this afternoon.

Sorry for the ramble but I just need it right now!

@Captain24