I can’t cope

It’s been a long day and I’m really tired. The groups this afternoon were quite boring.

My Pdoc visit was good though. I showed her what I wrote yesterday. Her eyes nearly popped out of her head. She said she was glad that they had taken the keys to my car.

She is actually really nice. We just had a long chat.

I’ve just been sitting on my car again. It’s helping to ground me but keep me connected to myself.

It’s a really odd feeling but tonight I’m feeling ok. I don’t have to hand things in.

Awww thanks @outlander

Wow, @Captain24 , I just read back and can see this admission is doing you good!

A huge well done for being honest with the treating team about your SI and SH.

Did they change your meds yesterday like you expected?

That's so good you were able to go to the beach. I hope this week you can settle more and even maybe have some enjoyable moments (beach, swimming, possible movies?)...

Hey @NatureLover

I don’t have much in me today. Sorry. I think that yesterday was too much.

Having a torch shined in your eyes in the middle of the night is not helpful either.

She didn’t change my meds.

Hope you are ok?

You're up early, @Captain24 ...how often do they shine the light in your eyes during the night?

Sorry to hear that yesterday was too much. Of course it would all be very intense there, working on your MH and trauma.

Maybe they will change your meds this week?

I'm OK thanks.

No need to reply if you need to rest 💙

Yeah.. they just came in and checked on me and woke me up. I hear them often but it’s the first time I’ve noticed the torch.

After having a rough couple of days she may look at it Friday after being in here for a week.

Im glad you are ok.

Hope you have a good day and hope you get to your volunteer job.

I’m not feeling it at all today. I have just put the i need time out card out the front of my room.

We went for a walk and I didn’t have my phone. So then I panicked as to where it was. It was in my room when I got back. So stupid me just forgot it.

Im now back in bed. I can’t do today. I can’t face it.

I need to run. I need to get out. I don’t know what I need..

Hi @Captain24 💜

I am sorry to hear you're having a rough start this morning. Do you feel like you need to get out of your room? What's coming up for you?

Sitting with you