I can’t cope

You haven't failed at all @Captain24

It can be hard to get used to a new routine and the pressure of being in there.

I have still had suicidal thoughts whilst I've been in here hon. Yes they have gotten better but they are still there.

Go easy on yourself hin, you are doing the best you can. Change is hard.

Just cause you’re in hospital @Captain24 @doesn’t mean the suicidal thoughts will stop. I still had them daily when I was in hospital recently, knew I couldn’t act on them and didn’t make it any easier.

Go easy on yourself. Give yourself time to adjust to your new surroundings and the routine there.

Sorry everyone. I’ll leave you all alone.

Hey @Captain24 ,

What makes you say that? How are you travelling?

When you said ‘what’d you expect’ @tyme

Hugs @Captain24 .

How have the groups been? Do you only have one a day? Any takeaways to share?

Sorry if I’ve pissed you off @tyme. I have a habit of doing that.

We had swimming this morning and gym. I didn’t do the gym I had a Pdoc appointment. Then 2 groups this afternoon. One on mindfulness and the other gratitude and journaling. Apparently diamond art and Lego are distractions not mindfulness! Not a lot to take away. It’s mostly stuff I already know but hearing it again doesn’t hurt.

Diamond Art and Lego CAN be distractions. It depends on whether you do it mindfully, right? @Captain24

If you want, you can sit there with a piece of lego in your hands and feel the bumps on it, the texture, its weight etc.

For example, I have to say that when I'm driving, I practice mindfulness. I name how the steering wheel feels, the bumps and textures, how the seat feels on my back etc...

So I wouldn't really throw lego and diamond art completely into the 'distractions' box.

Sorry it I'm blah-ing too much...

btw, piss me off? why would you? No way!

I think we've conversed long enough to know that this doesn't piss me off lol

Good morning @Captain24 ...I read that it was a tough day yesterday. Especially with your pdoc appt.

Have they mentioned any meds changes?

I hope today is easier and you start to feel more settled there.

Thinking of you...

Sorry @tyme. I feel asleep. I didn’t hear anyone checking in last night.

I guess. Maybe I don’t see mindfulness the correct way. One lady goes to some silent camp thing. She goes for 20 days and does not speak a word! FOR 20 days!!! That’s not mindfulness, that’s torture!

I never thought of driving.

Nah blah away!

Sorry.. I’m struggling in here and feel really on edge and I’m scared anything I say or do will upset people