I can’t cope

You can do this @Captain24

can you stick one of them cards under your door? Would chatting with a nurse help? Someone to sit with you while your cry?

im here too…. I can listen

I'm also sitting with you @Captain24 @Bow

Here if you wanted to chat at all ❤️

Thanks @Bow @amber22.

I stopped crying long enough to go to lunch. I’ve got groups starting in a minute. Not sure where I’m going which is adding even more pressure. I’ll have to ask for help.

I’ve tried to wash my face but I can’t get the puffiness out. 🤷‍♀️

You know what @Captain24 my first day at the private clinic, I went and sat in the room for the beginning of groups…. I’m always early… I’m early to everything. I sat… other people came and got their seats. I think it was a couple of minutes until it was due to start and I realised I was in the wrong room! How do I exit without people noticing??!? I felt so stupid! I worked up the courage and stood up and quietly walked out. I then had to find the correct room.
urgh….
well… I don’t really know why I told you that…. But just remember it’s your first day. Ask questions. Ask for help and directions.

I'm so glad that you were able to stop crying so that you could have lunch.

I think it's a really good idea to ask for help. How are you feeling about the group? @Captain24

Thanks for sharing that @Bow. It was actually really helpful. You gave me a little more confidence.

I was really scared about groups @amber22. But I managed it. It wasn’t easy and this one lady in my group kept throwing me under the bus and making me speak! She is lovely though. She has taken me under her wing.

Im really not doing well. I am so scared being here and just want to go home. I’m not coping.

I do have a nurse coming to check in on me. So I have reached out which is a huge step for me.

Glad it helped a little bit @Captain24

I found groups really scary too…. And I didn’t share much at first, had to wait til I felt more comfortable and even then I shared very cautiously. I’m glad that someone has taken you under their wing… hopefully it’s a relationship that continues to blossom…

continue to reach out to the nurse

Hey @Captain24 ! Thanks for the update! Well done on going to group and well done for speaking and well done for reaching out! That's impressive!

I hear how scary and hard it is and how you want to run home, but these feelings are absolutely valid! You've been there just over 24 hours! What'd you expect?

I'm so so glad a nurse has taken you under their wing - you see how people tend to gravitate towards you? I think they see you're genuine. 🙂

You absolutely deserve it.

Growth is painful. Change is painful. Yet that's where the work is.

@Captain24 it can be daunting at first hon. It took me a few days to settle in and find a routine for myself. Give yourself some time hon.

The nurses are there to help so use them. I know it's hard at times and we feel like we are needy but they are there for you.

I hope today has gone ok. Sending lots of love ❤️

Am I frustrating you @tyme ?

I feel like it’s just too much @Snowie @Bow. but if I leave them I’m letting everyone down and I’ve failed once again.

How can I have suicidal thoughts when I’m in here? It’s not like I can act on them