I can’t cope

@Captain24 I think because I have done it a few times before, it's easier. And I know they will be in good hands. And as much as I'd love to take em with me wherever I go, they're definitely not travel-loving cats! They're too used to being at home. And I think generally speaking cats are harder to take with you than dogs - like if they got spooked they'd go pelting off into the nearest hidey hole, and don't always come when I call them haha.

Sounds like you've organised it all really well hun. They will miss you, but pets are more resilient than we imagine I reckon.

I gleaned that you'd gotten a date, but I don't know when, soon I'm guessing?

It’s ok @Jynx. The dogs don’t come when they are called either! Unless there is a treat involved 😜

I go in at 1pm on Thursday. I can give you more cats cause I’m shittin’ kittens. 😝

I cried in my psych appointment about going in and I didn’t even have the date then. Then I had a CM appointment and cried again. She gave me a hug when I left. She said she was proud of me. Both have said I can contact them while I’m in there.

This is why I want to do everything today so I can spend tomorrow with my babies. My heart and soul.

Lawns are done now onto ironing and packing.

I’m really struggling without cigarettes today!!! I want to cave badly

'Shitten kittens' 🤣🤣 omg @Captain24 you make me laugh!

It's awesome that your supports have said that you can contact them! They really got your back 😊 Glad you could get some tears out and a lil hug too. Can make such a difference hey.

That sounds like a good plan, soaking up allllll the puppy love tomorrow without having to worry about stuff you still gotta do!

Mm the craving withdrawal times are rough for sure, but you can do it! You are keeping busy which helps, and once you're in hospital you'll not have the opportunity to get em either. It gets easier and easier as time passes, just hold on! You got dis 💪💜

I thought you of all people would find it amusing! @Jynx.

I am lucky with my supports. I think I did well.

I hope I can achieve what I need to tonight, even if it’s a late one. It’ll give me all day tomorrow.

It’s funny.. the lawn didn’t take me anywhere near as long since I didn’t have to stop for smoke breaks and I felt better when I’d finished! I hope the cravings stop soon. I’ve come so far, it’s the longest I have had a smoke in 25 years.

What have you been up to today?

@Captain24 I hope you can get it all done too, but don't push yourself too hard! Don't wanna be too tired when you wanna be playing with the lil fuzz balls 😋

Wow that's huge! A long time habit like that is hard to kick - the habit as much as the physical addiction. It'll fade out though, trust the process. And you're already able to observe the positives! Hooray 😊

Not too much actually, I will do some cleaning after work though - I'm going away next Wednesday so gotta get my clothes in order and make sure the house is nice for my partner who is coming to look after the lil fuzzy gremlins.

I’ll push until all that is left is general cleaning @Jynx. I will sleep better knowing it’s all ok. I think 🤔

I have a lot of cravings, a lot but the habit seems to be the hardest. I’m hoping that for the next three weeks my routine will be completely different so it should break the habit.

It’s good your partner can look after them. That would help heaps. Is that for the festival where you’re doing the lights?

@Captain24 good stuff, so long as you got that balance eh? I'm sure no matter how much sleep you get, you will get energy from playing and spending time w your precious darlings 😊

Yeah I reckon it'll help! The longer you go, the easier it gets after all!

Yeah they know my partner pretty well so it'll definitely be much easier on them than having someone random popping in. I'm super grateful they're able to come stay.

Yep! I am helping out with set up, so probably a lot of heavy lifting haha. I won't be allowed to do the lights, it's my friend who is doing them haha but I will still get to watch them!

I know I will do too much @Jynx. That’s me, all or nothing. I’ve nearly finished the ironing and about to pack. I think I’m taking too much but I don’t know.

This is the cool event you’ve been for isnt it? There’s something about a hard days work that feels fantastic! It’s a different kind of tired.

Having trouble with my ironing

AWW BABY!! Haha ironing is temporarily banned whilst it serves as a bed! So cute 😍

I mean, better too much than not enough right @Captain24? You wanna be comfortable hey.

Yepper, I know it will be rough at some points but then the reward is getting to flail around on the dance floor to some killer tunes and pretty pretty lasers! Plus there'll be cool little market stalls, an art gallery and art installations, and they usually have a nifty activity like a scavenger hunt or a maze! I will come home utterly exhausted in body but nourished in mind and soul 😊

I always think I can bring it home but if I haven’t got it then I can’t get it @Jynx. I have plenty!

You’re going to have a hectic time. Just imagine when all those laser lights are happening, you help do that. How long does it go for? The thought of going to a festival does not excite me at all.

There was some random festival out here earlier this year. They really upset half the town and have been told not to come back! lol