I can’t cope

Hey @Captain24 oh that's completely understandable. Has your psychologist offered any good tips for phobias?

No actually @Paperdaisy. That would be helpful right about now. You got any tips?

I just had an appointment with my CM and broke down again around the fear. She told me I can pull out at anytime. But she would like to see me try. She said I can email her while I’m away. So it’s nice to know I have her support.

Hmm @Captain24 my phobias are different to yours but I suppose trying to turn the internal dialogue into a positive one, telling yourself you can do it, rather than all the reasons why you can't. Asking yourself the worst things that can happen and reminding yourself that you do have the skills to cope and that you will be OK.

That's nice you have that support. She sounds very caring. You're also still connected here aren't you? You can check in with us online and let us know how it's going?

Thanks @Paperdaisy. I will try and convince myself that it will all be ok. I’m hoping it’s just my fear. I won’t let anyone down, I will go in on Thursday no matter what.

My CM is awesome. She is 71 and went on holidays last week to see her brother and went surfing! She is a massive support, she even gave me a hug as I left.

I will still be here making your life a misery. You guys can’t get rid of me that easily! I will checkin though.

haha good @Captain24 we don't want to get rid of you.

That's so lovely, you're lucky to have her in your life and she's lucky to have you too 😊

I’m hurting. I’m hurting really badly. I have so much to do by this time tomorrow and I have to do it so my house is ready for my dog sitter to move in.

But I want to spend time with my babies. I’m going to miss them so much and they are going to miss me. My heart breaks for them having a stranger look after them.

You are going to miss each other a lot @Captain24 but I'm sure they would want you to do what's best for you. They are in good hands 😊 I'm sure it adds to all the anxiety though.. super tough.

I think it does add to it. @Paperdaisy I want to be with them as much as possible before I dump them. That’s what I feel like I’m doing. I’m hoping that she will look after them. It’s her first time doing anything like this. Mum is taking them after 2 weeks though so that will be less stress. I will cry when I leave them behind.

They are your family @Captain24 it's okay to be a wreck to leave them!! My friends and I often talk about the fact that we're baffled by how little some folks care about their pets, and seem to have no sympathy for when we are as emotional about em as any of our closest friends/family. You may miss em like crazy but that's okay, and just think about how exciting it will be when you are reunited 😊

Also, you're not dumping them!! You've gone to the effort to ensure they're getting looked after - and not just that, but ensuring that they will remain home too - till they go with your mum anyway (but I imagine it won't be their first time going to her place). I always get pet sitters rather than sending my bubbas off to a boarding house or kennel, I just know that it's way better for them to be in their comfort zone than to be shipped off somewhere strange! I think your lil puppers are gonna be a-ok. Maybe when they go with your mum you can facetime them, so they can hear your voice and know you're ok!

They are my everything @Jynx. They are my reason for living. If anything happens to them I will join them. The reunion will be amazing. I just wish they were with mum sooner. If all goes to plan I should have a week with them before I go back to work.

I was kinda hoping my admission date wasn’t until the weekend that way it would have been less time with the sitter and more time with my parents. I’m sure she will be ok. Jett will be fine Pix is going to take some work though.

I will talk to them on the phone when mum has them. I’m leaving the sitter mums number in case anything happens or she needs anything.

I don’t know how you cope leaving your cats. At least I can usually take the dogs with me!

Im guessing you read that I have the date I go in.