I can’t cope

Oh yeah you should be fine, I've never seen leeches near the beach @Captain24! Yeah that's weird lol, definitely the only forest in Aus is rainforest! The rest is bush, 100%.

Are you just telling me that? @Jynx. I’ll let you know what it’s like if they ever give me an admission date.

I'm already having dreams about how horrible the admission will be. @Bow has described her experience and that was helpful.

Something has just happened @Jynx . I’m shaking and have broken into a hot sweat. like when you’re really nervous. This is not quite the same. The shakes are making it hard to walk. It’s not like a normal anxiety attack. I don’t know what is wrong.

Oh you're still waiting @Captain24? That's frustrating!

It's totally understandable that your anxiety is so big it's being processed in your dreams too. I'm glad Bow's words were helpful to you hun. And don't forget we'll be with you the whole way too 💜

@Captain24 perhaps a lot of emotions catching up to you all at once? Sounds pretty scary hun, but you will get through it. Anxiety attacks ALWAYS pass eventually.

Did something shift or change in your environment, or in your mind, that might have brought this on?

Deep, slow breaths hun. And call the nurse on call if you're really worried and not sure what's going on. Sitting with you, got some hugs here for ya 💜🫂

It’s scary @Jynx. I’ve been having a few anxiety attacks but more sorta anger ones. This one is different.

The only thing I was doing was starting to sort stuff for my admission.

@Captain24 considering how anxiety inducing your admission has been to not only decide to do, but also to organise, that actually makes sense hun.

Would it help to call someone, ask for some soothing or grounding and a safe space to talk?

Just picture me sitting next to ya hun, rubbing ur back and telling you it will all be okay - cos it will be 💜🫂

I thought I was kinda ok with it @Jynx. Last week I was sorta looking forward to it as a break from life.

But I guess now it’s happening sometime this week may be it. Plus I don’t have a date yet which I guess isn’t helping.

Lots of members have been in hospital and have been ok going in.

The more I’m thinking about it. That’s probably what it is.

Im so scared about going in. I’m scared

I’m not going to cope at all.

Will you stay with me? Please?

Here with you hun @Captain24 - and will check in with you all throughout your stay as well. I'm here till 10pm, would you like to talk about other stuff or is it more helpful right now to talk about how the admission is playing on your brain?

I don’t know if I can do it @Jynx. You can now add tears to the list. I don't know if I can go.