I can’t cope

I don't know how you did it for so long @tyme. There is no way I would. If they want to come they will. But I leave when I am ready not when they are. I usually want to stay longer than them.

I can’t wait to be alone. The only draw back is my safety but I hoping by be able to keep myself busy I will be ok.

My arrogant piece of shit brother is here too. It’s making everything so much harder right now.

I’m glad things are ok. Are you still sleeping in the floor?

Is your brother in the picture during this trip @Captain24 ? I thought he didn't' even know about it? Maybe he inherited it from your mum?

You know what? As bad as it sounds, maybe you just need to leave them alone for a bit for your own MH's sake.

Is your dad more like you?

And yes, I'm on the floor. I slept with my niece last night, but I'm back to my place tonight. I get a sore back sleeping with her on her bed lol... she's painful to sleep with because she takes up the entire big bed!

My brother and his girlfriend came to dinner on Friday night after mum telling him we were here. She gave him 2 hrs notice. There’s a whole story to that.

He just came around to pick stuff up that

mum got and he was just being himself. He is as bad as mum. Dad isn’t like than but he is very short with anything we say. He is really difficult to have a conversation with unless he is bad mouthing mum. I use to think I was like him but I’ve come to realise I’m nothing like any of them (well I hope not) and don’t even know that I like them as people.

I said that we had to go on a walk @tyme so that made my brother leave. It meant I wasn’t on my own but it did limit me to just my parents instead of all of them.

My MH has taken a massive beating in the last week.

I have to laugh that you have a sore back from sleeping in a bed! Was it the bed or your niece? Are you still spending as much time with them?

Hey @creative_writer Thanks for your support and understanding. I have to unpack, wash and repack so I’m hoping that will keep me busy and distracted. So I have some plans in place.

lol @Captain24 ,

Yes, sore back from sleeping in a bed, but fine on the floor. I don't know if it's my niece's issue or the bed's issue. I really don't like sleeping with her. I get all annoyed with her, and dream of just sleeping on the floor. I've even considered sleeping on the floor in her room but she's got carpet and I have allergies.

As for your family, it sounds like your brother has his own issues... sad. At least you can reflect on what's not working for you and do something about it, whereas they just end up making everyone else's life miserable.

I hope things change for them... who knows?

You sound like you really need a break from them! Even I can't wait til you get home! You've got one more morning to 'please' them and that's it!

Cay you send me a photo of your ‘bed’ please? If that’s ok @tyme. I just have this image that I can’t shake! 😜

Even the carpet isn’t good enough! I do get the allergies thing though. When I worked at my last place I was there when they built the store. Literally from the ground up, they put carpet in an I kept getting itchy, it was wool carpet!

I don’t think they will change, they don’t see that there is anything wrong. They s proud of who they are. Mum says she is a bitch and proud of it. My brother says he’s an arsehole and proud of it.

I’ll be so glad. I’m guessing you all will be glad I’ve been annoying you all!

I changed my sheets before I left @creative_writer so they are good. I’ve got a few clothes to wash and then iron them all and pack to go to hospital.

Im not sure if there is a laundry available as I don’t have enough clothes to get me through if there isn’t. I’ll be 4+hours from home so no visitors. I’ll have to check when they give me an admission date.

LOL. I'll get a photo later this week. @Captain24

My sister saw me once and said I looked like I was homeless...

Looks like the proud b*tch and arsehole can't stand each other.... sad.

You can change people like that.

Main thing is you look after yourself and do what you can to better yourself.