I can’t cope

Sounds like you are having a tough time @Captain24 and you are staying connected here on the Forums which is great to see. What can you do to get you through today? Maybe something you have tried in the past will work today.

Sitting with you today!

RiverSeal

Hi @Captain24

Have been reading along hon.

My thoughts are with you. Please stay connected, we are here for you ❤️

Thanks @RiverSeal

Thanks @Snowie

My parents are still being really horrible to each other. I did separate them for a little while. Dad went and seen his sister and mum and I did something else. Mind you she bitched about him while we were doing it. I hate that they keep putting me in the middle.

Oh! You did go camel riding! Nice @Captain24 .

I wonder what would happen if you just said to your mum, "I really don't want to hear it" in relation to talking about others like your dad.

Thanks @creative_writer

I realised on the way out to the camels that mum has nothing else to talk about other than whinging about others. @tyme.

She is a very bitter person and has a very bitter life. It doesn’t make what they are doing to me any easier but I know I don’t want to be that bitter person. When I’m around them I am about them and my brother.

I did tell her I didn’t want to hear it. I do often, she either sulks or continues anyway. She is so hard to deal with and so is dad.

Im hoping that this 3 weeks away from them, with very little to no contact with them, helps me to heal a little. It might be the space I need.

I didn’t get to the beach to have my alone time but we did get to do the camel ride. I wanted too but I figured next time we were here I wouldn’t give them a choice. But mum decided she wanted to do it so it meant it happened. So today Im glad of mums sulking!

It was awesome. It was only for 20 minutes and we went over the small sand dunes and then along the water front and in the water.

I'm sorry you mum is this way. @Captain24 It sounds like she has a lot of things to work through but she's not ready to. And you know what? It probably only gets worse as she ages.

One thing you learn is: You don't want to turn out like her, right?

So that's something to always be conscious of.

Hey @tyme

I am her reading through what I have written.

I can’t take them. I said I was taking the dogs to the beach in the morning on the way out. Now they have to as well. I can’t escape them. But this time tomorrow I will be at home on my own. I am looking forward to it, it is a little concerning though.

I’ve been really self-centred and haven’t checked in on you.

How have you been?

Look, for ppl who are used to living along, being around people 24/7 is a drainer. Remember when I was away with the extended family? I could wait to be alone again! @Captain24 So look, wanting to be alone again has its drawbacks, but it's also needed.

Let them come tomorrow morning, then go home to chill. You've done your family duty for Feb 🙂

Btw, I've been okay on this side.