I can’t cope

Hey @Acanthiza

Im so glad the support group was good.

Im so Sorry your mum responded that way. They will do anything for family just not deal with mental health. Do you have anyone in your life that supports you?

It hurts that they don’t even care enough to ask any questions. Or just a ‘how are you, honestly’ and actually listen.

My parents have no idea why I have just escaped to get an ice cream. All they will ask when I get back is why it took so long. I’m sitting at the marina listening to the ocean, with no ice cream!

You are always welcome to vent. You have my permission! Not that you need it as this is open to everyone.

@Captain24 I fell asleep 😴

since going on medication it is like a switch gets thrown and I just completely zonk out. A good thing! But it can be pretty abrupt.

You are right, I wish my family would care a bit more. When I told my brother he had one idle comment on the medication I'm taking (he used to be a hospital pharmacist) and then that's it. Never asked anything else or mentioned it again.

I have a sister who is supportive but she also doesn't really get what it is like. She has anxiety but not as severely as me. She is busy with her own life as well with two kids and such.

Take your escapes when you can @Captain24 you don't owe your parents a reason why you are taking a bit of space. Hope today goes well for you.

Once my meds kick in I’m out like a light too @Acanthiza. I’m just not sure which one does it.

Do you have friends that support you?

It sucks when family won’t help. Mum hasn’t asked any questions since I told her either. I’m lucky I have Comm Health otherwise I’d be on my own.

Mums dog has just hurt herself so she is trying to get into a vet. So sadly I will have some alone time but it will probably just be at the accommodation.

Any plans for today?

I have some good friends but they are very busy and I feel weird dumping stuff on them.

Poor dog! I hope it is ok.

I am at work atm heheh, the guy I have today is just playing video games : /

Hey. @Acanthiza

I have a friend that I can talk to but she Melbourne so she is 12 + hrs away. She is really good. She has been doing her research and has discovered that she could have a MI.

Sounds like a cruisey shift.

The dog has an appointment at 10:30 am so they have come back. I’ll wait and see what their appointment brings. I think she has concussion so I hope she is ok. If they have to stay at home with her I will get the whole day.

My job is quite cruisy and I don't do many days yet somehow still feels like too much to me. Don't handle work well.

Finding out you have a mental illness is so weird, what you thought was normal life turns out to not be the average experience, I hope your friend figures things out.

A day to yourself sounds pretty good @Captain24 , a bit of breathing room.

Just waiting on them to get back @Acanthiza. It’ll be nice if I get what’s left of the day.

I find working a struggle as well at the moment. I am off until Easter though. I do 4 or 5 days in a row, 12.5 hrs shifts plus travel time. Then I get 4 or 5 days off. I usually do it quite well and the first thing my team ask me is how work is. Thats the big indicator that I’m really bad.

She is ok with finding things out, I think I’ve helped. She has me to bounce off and she would never tell anyone else. She is going to speak to her GP but she sees it as explaining so much of what has happened in her life.

Mums dog is ok, the vet thinks it’s just a bad headache. That’s good news as we can just give her pain relief.

Bad news for me though. I’ve been stuck with them ever since. They are on speaking terms but they get really frustrated with each other. They both shake their fists behind each other’s backs but so I can see it. I wish they would just leave me out of it.

Dad’s a shit driver, I mean really bad. That was the cause of the argument last night. He doesn’t get round-a-bouts or traffic lights. Just because it goes green doesn’t mean you can go when turning a corner. If it’s a 2 lane round-a-bout stick to your own lane. It’s not that hard!

We've had 2 near misses and both at my door. I said I didn’t care if I didn’t come back from holidays. At this rate maybe I won’t. I would be happy with that. At least then it’s not me giving up on my dogs. I would be taken from them instead.

Not doing ok today. It’s getting really hard. I don’t want to do this.

I am safe

T/W suicidal thoughts.

Im sitting in a really beautiful place, beautiful scenery, beautiful sound. Yes I'm at the beach. Im calmly sitting here thinking this would be the perfect place when the time comes. Just to go to sleep. Taking in the ambiance.

Just making it clear the time is not now.

@Captain24 , I'm sorry to hear you are still sitting with these difficult thoughts. I know from experience how unpleasant they are.

At the same time, I'm glad you are at the beach. Enjoy it.