I can’t cope

The beach was so good @tyme. The peace, the serenity.

Then I come back to this. Mum is whinging that she is bored and that I get to go to the beach of an afternoon and she does nothing. Not my fault. I gave suggestions but she rejects them all.

She is now hating on my dogs. Because hers is feeling a bit off. She is being nasty.

This is getting really hard. I was kinda hoping they would pack the shits with each other and just go home. But instead they are just whinging.

I’m sorry for being so difficult again and it seems like always. I am finding it really hard to lift myself other than focusing when I’m at the beach.

This time next week I could be in hospital. Some days I’m not sure I will make it. The thoughts are so strong. I just hurt so much. I can’t even describe the internal pain.

Your mum doesn't seem very well herself right now @Captain24 ... has this sort of behaviour become worse lately?

It must be so hard for you.

Are you around @Captain24 ?

Hey @tyme.

Sorry we went to dinner and took the dogs to the beach. I just have to do what keeps them happy.

Mum has did a complete 180 and helped me take photos at the beach. Now she has turned back again.

I do think there is something else with her other than being a narcissist. Dad, I can see he has bad anxiety and that’s what caused last nights situation.

I am really unwell, as we all know, and I just don’t have the mental capacity to deal with it. If I didn’t love it here I would leave but I love it and so does Pix. I just have to suck it up. Tomorrow we will be going on walks that I love so I can hopefully concentrate on the scenery. They have no idea of what they have done and are doing to me. But I can see that I’m allowing it but it’s my parents and I can’t say anything.

@Jynx This is my favourite beach. Photos don’t do it justice though. I’ll try and get some photos in the daylight. It’s just hard as there is so many people around.

It is a tough situation @Captain24 , trying to manage other people's moods when yours is so low. I am glad you are really taking in the positives of the beach and your precious dogs. I don't know what the best thing to do is but I do know you will get through it all and that better things are coming.

I'm so glad you are safe and well @Captain24 . I'm glad your mum did a 180.... you deserve that little bit of respite.

Rest up. I hope to see more photos. They are lovely!

Love the photos @Captain24 😊

Oh my stars, @Captain24 those pics are gorgeous!! You got a good eye for photography! I'm about to log off for tonight or I'd stay and chat for longer - but I thank you muchly for sharing 😊

All I got in return is this cute pic of Razz sleeping hehe. Chat again soon hun, sending some very squishy cuddles your way 🫂

Sorry for causing concern @tyme. You brought a tear to my eye showing me how much you care. You don’t know how much that means to me.