I can’t cope

Hey @Jynx.

I did get to go to the beach. It was so nice being in it and focusing on the bigger world. Then the serenity of just sitting and watching.

The iced chocolate was so good and then just looking at all the boats in the marina.

We have just taken the dogs down to the beach. Pix had a great time. Jett isn’t really sure but loved climbing on the rocks.

It was just so good to get out into nature especially on the coast. It has helped me forget for a couple of hours.

Now it’s all back, my parents, my hatred and my thoughts. But I did get a break and I appreciate that.

How are you?

I'm so glad that you got to spend some time truly enjoying your surroundings @Captain24 - no matter how miserable it might be to be with your parents, it can't undo that experience or make it less meaningful.

I'm not too bad, pretty tired and have to do a bunch of cleaning tonight, I kept postponing my house inspection and really can't do so again. I'll make it through though!

What's on the cards for you tomorrow?

I’m trying to keep the good in mind @Jynx. Considering where I’m at mentally being able to acknowledge peaceful moments is a huge achievement.

Argh.. rent inspections. I use to hate them. Id scrub the house twice and then just before they arrived. Everything was

perfect in place. I hope you can get it sorted and ready. Do you have much to do ?

As for tomorrow lots of walking around the headlands, we will head to another dog friendly beach. I’m hoping that I get to go out tomorrow afternoon as well. I’d like to have 2 hrs to myself and forget everything. I think it’s really good for me.

What do you have on?

It is @Captain24! And one worth celebrating 💜 It means that that particular state of mind is not as out of reach as perhaps you thought, and can be created again.

Few things, vacuuming and cleaning bathroom sink. Will have to do stove top again, and spot clean the walls. But hopefully it won't keep me up toooo late.

I think so too, you definitely deserve to have some time to yourself! Don't let anyone guilt trip you out of it 😉

Other than inspection, just gonna be here again tomorrow night! Same for Thursday, and Friday I have to go and get some new tyres. Never done so before, hope I don't get ripped off!

I can see that maybe have a good moment helps @Jynx but I feel like there is way more bad ones and at the moment they are extreme.

If I can get a couple of good hours in tomorrow then this trip hasn’t been a waste.

That doesn’t sound like too much. I hope you can get it done quickly. It’s so much work for a 5 minute walk around. I hope your inspection isn’t too early, I know how much you prefer nights.

Sounds like you have a plan for a couple of days. Can’t believe you’ve never gotten tyres before! Just do your research and you will be prepared.

Im really tired, mums been at me with my meds and thinks I should take them at dinner. Plus they are fighting so I’m going to bed. I hope you have a good night and I’ll see you tomorrow

@Captain24 it is a cliche but it is still true, it is all those small moments that make life worthwhile. I'm glad you are finding a bit of time and space to enjoy them, especially with your dogs. I love animals, they are straightforward, they don't lie or judge you they are just sincere. Well my cats are being a bit of a nuisance at the moment but I like that too, they would be boring if they were just good all the time.

@Jynx house inspection bleh. It has been a while and I don't miss renting. Dealing with useless landlords and slimy real estate agents. Well I also didn't handle a lot of things well, especially financially. Ramble ramble I hope you are well.

@Captain24 I hope you do, time at the beach can be so nourishing! Nighty night hun, rest well 💜

I do love a good ramble @Acanthiza and hope that you too, are well 💜

Yeah it's a pain, that's for sure! Buuut it also does prompt me into deep cleaning my house, which I am not good at maintaining most of the time 😅

@Jynx , good luck with your rental inspection! I have one coming up too...

@Captain24 it was great to read that you've had some positives and moments of peace on your holiday 🙂

I haven't been online much, been struggling. But I care about you.

So sorry your mother and brother are so nasty 😢