I can’t cope

The only time all be away from them is when I sleep @tyme.

Everything on their terms I’m just there stupid child. Why would I have an opinion. Why would I be right. When it’s discovered I’m right I’ll be told how stupid I was for not saying anything.

Im growing to actually hate them. The whole ‘nut case’ and ‘nut house’ thing pushed me too far.

No respect. No care. The only thing they would get out of me dying is being able to play the sympathy card.

Im not worth anything to them. I’m not worth anything to anyone.

Maybe it’s just me that I hate. Maybe I’m just deflecting.sane that’s how stupid I am. I can’t even tell the difference. No wonder everyone thinks I’m stupid.

It sounds so hard that you are made to think this way @Captain24 . It must be so so hard to have this lingering in your mind.

Can you think of times when things were different?

The only time they have been proud is when I got my job and built a house. @tyme. All material.. nothing about me just what I have.

I don’t know that they actually care about me at all. Just what I can do for them or give them.

But they don’t like each other either. They both put me straight in the middle ‘your mum …’ ‘your dad…’ it makes it all so much harder.

I just want to bash my head against the wall to stop it from having it all go around in circles.

I can’t keep going. I don’t want too.

Why? Why? Why?

Will anyone ever care about me or am I just not worth it.

I'm wondering if there are other things they are proud of you for, but they don't know how to show it? It sounds like they have their own issues to contend with and work through. @Captain24

I can see how it affects you though.

At the same time, I'd encourage you to focus on the things that you are able to change. We all know that you can't change them. So what is in your power to change?

I wonder if you feel so alone because you live in such a small town? @Captain24

I know you are closer to your job where you are, but would you consider going out more often?