I can’t cope

So.. as everyone knows, I’m in a pretty bad place. Each and everyday is a massive struggle to make to the end.

I haven’t made a lot of connections here other than a couple of you and a couple of PSW. This was highlighted today.

I am alone in life as I don’t have many connections there either. But I’m feeling really lonely on here too. This was the place that I felt comfortable.

Now I’m starting to feel a little unwelcome. I don’t know if that’s my head telling me or not. I’m feeling pretty unwelcome in a lot of other aspects of my life.

At the moment I’m scared of saying the wrong thing. But I never managed to say the right thing.

It’s just all way too hard right now. Everything is way too hard.

I don’t even know why I’m writing this. It’s not for sympathy and it’s not so people care. It’s more just me saying what I’m feeling I guess.

I have always been alone and happy to be alone but at the moment I feel lonely and lost.

Hey @Captain24 Im really sorry that things are so bleak for you and your feeling this way- I often feel this way too, so your not alone.

I hope that you consider me one of the connections you have made on here. I consider you a friend and I care about you.

im really sorry I haven’t had much to give recently, I just don’t much inside. Feels like I have to give everything I’ve got to just get myself through the days at the moment too.

I know life can be really lonely at times. I don’t have many friends either…. I have people I know… but I’m not sure I’d call them friends. It really sucks at times. And it’s truly lonely. It has certainly helped getting out and involved in the groups that I attend… but again I wouldn’t consider them friends and people don’t really talk there much.

I really hope your admission is helpful for you. That you come out feeling a lot better and in a much better place.

around for the night if you need some company

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'm sorry you feel so alone right now in your journey. I recognise the pain you are in.

You know we are hear for you, just like what @Bow said.

Hey @Bow 🙂

It's great to see both of you.

Hey @tyme

How are you? How’s your day been?

I haven’t got anything in me either @Bow. I am thinking of you and hoping all is starting to work out for you though.

Yes you are one of the people I feel I’ve connected with.

It just feels like a really lonely world. I don’t get lonely often. But right now it’s soul crushing. @tyme

Hey @Bow ,

My day has been pretty good. I've been in the pool and had a good swim. The water was so nice.

What did you get up to today?

@Captain24 , I'm sorry it is soul crushing. I'm sorry you have had to wait so long to get the help you need. Is your CM appointment tomorrow?

@tyme Mum and my daughter came to visit today. They were here early! We did some drawing, watched some tv. Went for a walk.

I’m glad you had visitors @Bow. D must love seeing you. Do you think you’ll be home before your mum goes?

I have to go to work tomorrow @tyme so I’m hoping she remembers that we need an appointment Tuesday.

I’ve gotta be home @Captain24 no other real option. I managed breakfast and lunch again today without needing a top up. And I think 1/2 of dinner. I’m struggling big time at the moment though.
I’ll chat with the dietitian tomorrow and see how she thinks I am going and see what she thinks about a time frame of going home.

@Captain24 I think it ebbs and flows on here. Sometimes there are lots of people to talk to and sometimes on a few. I guess it is like taking the good with the bad.

Even if we see your post and don't react to it, doesn't mean we don't care about you hon.

I hope the support here and in real life can get you through these next difficult days 💕💕