I can’t cope

That's nice that your mum and D could come @Bow . You seem to be in a better place.

@Captain24 , yes, I hope you will be able to chat to your CM Tuesday to talk to your parents.

Thats not what I meant @Snowie. I wasn’t being a spoilt brat. I was just saying I felt lonely and other than you two and one other I haven’t really made many connections. That is my own fault.

I hope the dietitian can help you out @Bow It sounds like you are trying.

I just hope she remembers @tyme I want the burden of them knowing and me knowing what’s happening with my babies off my shoulders.

@Captain24 I'm sorry if I interpreted the wrong way hon. I would never think of you as a spoilt brat.

I struggle to make connections on here as well in real life too. I don't think it is your fault hon. We are all made up in different ways and there are just some people who are just so good at making friends. Yes I do believe that our MI is a factor. People seem to run on the opposite direction, but that is there loss, at they don't see the wonderful, caring and nurturing person that we see on here.

I count you as a true friend on here hon, and like you I don't have many on here (or any in real life)

All good @Snowie. I just didn’t want to be compared to some others.

How is it going ?

Can you send your CM a little reminder @Captain24 ?

This is so important for you. I really think you will feel much better once you know what's happening. The waiting game is always the hardest.

Would never compare you to others hon, especially on here @Captain24

I actually am in awe of your courage and determination to keep going even when things are really rough. Not a lot of people could do that.

I'm ok. SI have been higher today but stuck in here I know I can't do anything. At least I get some leave each day. There is a really nice dog and family park opposite the hospital so will sometimes just grab a coffee and watch the world go by.

I sent her an email with the address for the referral so I’m hoping that that will prompt her memory. @tyme. If I don’t hear from her tomorrow I will email her for her to get it on Tuesday.

Having mum and dad know will be a double edged sword. I’m scared of the things that they will say to me and what they will say to my brother when we are on holidays.

I’m really worried about the dogs too. I haven’t left Pix at all. Other than the night she spent at the vets after her knee surgery. I’m hoping mum will look after them but be nice to them. Or fingers crossed that the vet nurse can take them.

I don’t think I have any courage @Snowie. The fear inside me is deep. It sucks about your SI but at least you don’t have to try and stay safe. You are.

Sitting in the park sounds nice.

Apparently where I’m going is 15mins walk to the beach so the will be nice on weekends.

You show courage by just getting out of bed everyday @Captain24

You show courage by coming on here

We don't see these things within ourselves but they are there. It is just really hard sometimes to dig them out of the ground.

I have spent most of the day in bed @creative_writer @Snowie. I certainly haven’t been able to function too well.

I do have to get up for work tomorrow though. So I should probably try and get some sleep. Since it’s been so erratic.

Both of you should be proud of yourselves!!