I can’t cope

You've got this @Captain24

Is there anything that might help you in this moment? Some deep breaths, maybe put the air con on in your car or is there something on your phone you could distract yourself with? You're doing so well

I’ve just come out of my appointment @amber22. She has told me that I have to do the 3 week admission. Not one week. She knows the Pdoc at the facility that I’m going to so I think she will enforce it.

Im still shaking because I now need to work out the dogs. Mum won’t have them so I need to find someone that will. I’m meeting with my CM on Tuesday to help me tell my parents.

Im scared of the admission.

Hi @Captain24 ,

Thanks for the update. With the admission, which part is causing the most grief? Is it the organisation beforehand or the admission itself?

I know you are scared @Captain24 and it maybe an inconvenience and seem like a long time, but I think it is what you need at the moment hon. It’s an opportunity for you to rest. Let others take the reins and look after you for a bit. And hopefully it will have a lot of positives come out of it.

Do you have options for someone else to care for the dogs? Or will you need to look into dog kennel type facilities? You might also find private careers too.

thinking of you

Both @tyme.

The admission scares the shit out of me. I don’t know if I can cope. I don’t know if I can do it.

The organisation part is a nightmare. My parents are not going to be happy. Plus I have to work out ‘dog gate’ as my psychiatrist put it.

She was pretty impressed that I had gone so far as filling in the admission paperwork. She said she never thought she see the day that I would do it. But she said I need to break this cycle.

I did say to her that I think I need it @Bow. Her response was definitely! It is such a long time. It sounds stupid but I have never been away from Pix that long.

A kennel is out of the question, I will not do it to them. I have to find someone.

Mum is going to lose her mind at me. I don’t think they get how bad it will be. I’m going to be belittled. I’m going to be told I’m selfish. I’m going to be told I’m inconsiderate. She told me I had to say dad’s health wasn’t the best that’s why I couldn’t go. I’m going to be in so

much trouble.

Im shaking, I’m lightheaded, I have pain in my chest and I can’t breathe. I’m not ok.

It’s alright. I know you are all sick of me. I’ll go.

Hey @Captain24 ,

Sorry it took some time to reply. So it sounds like the dogs are your main worry?

I have a feeling that once your CM speaks to your parents and explains it, then it'll all be smooth that way.

Do you think it's possible to park this until your CM speaks to them rather than catastrophise now? I'm not saying they will certainly take the dogs for three weeks, but hopefully you don't have to over think it now until you get a definitely yes or no from them?

Just a thought.

Remember, you have come so far already. As you said, for you to have even filled out those papers is a HUGE step.

Hey @Captain24 sorry got busy here.

I really hope that once your CM can speak with your parents they will be a little more understanding and compassionate. I’ve always found that the team of CM here have been good when I’ve needed to tell my mum some things. They are better with words and explaining things.
Hopefully then dog gate can all be sorted out for you.

Sorry

I cant