I can’t cope

@Captain24I know how it feels to have that one thought underpinning everything and sapping all the motivation and positivity from things. When it is like that to me it feels like climbing a mountain, but if you just focus on one foot after the other eventually you can get there.

Alright bad similes aside I am glad you are meeting your supports, I understand the anxiety though. Really hoping they can help.

Hey @Acanthiza.

Hope you are doing ok.

Sorry I haven’t been around. This is at you too @NatureLover @Bow @Snowie. I just don’t really have it in me. I do appreciate all the support you are all showing me though.

I don’t have the energy to focus on on foot in front of the other it’s just a dragging of a foot and that takes too

much effort.

This is unlike anything I have felt before. I’m not even sure I can come back from it.

Ahhh @Captain24 I don't know what to say. Don't feel like you need to be replying to me or anything! I don't want to be recounting my experiences or anything, what you are going through seems extremely intense and I can only send you what support I can through the internet.

I am not making sense sorry.

I am doing alright, ultra rapid cycling I think, I don't really know. I don't know what constitutes what but bouncing between depression and feeling "good". The waking up between 1 and 4 am on different days is probably a sign something is going on.
I feel bad about talking so much in your thread when you have so much going on. If you feel up to it I would love to hear how things go tomorrow but don't feel obligated.

Hey @Acanthiza. It’s all good. My advice in the rapid cycling is to see someone and try and get it under control pretty quickly. This started out with severe, quick rapid cycling. I didn’t know what I would be feeling one hour to the next. As the ‘goods’ started to disappear everything went pear shaped really quickly and really badly.

You will get through this @Captain24 it may feel worse than anything you have faced before, but you will be amazed at what you are capable of doing and getting through. I know you don’t hold much hope in that, but there are plenty of people that can hold that hope for you. 💕

Me and @Bow sitting here with a whole basket of hope for you @Captain24 . It's a picnic basket maybe? It's all glowy and full of delicious hopeful foods. We can all sit together by the beach and listen to the waves crash against the shore.

Here to chat if you wanna 💜

@Captain24 💗

Thanks for the basket full of hope @Jynx @Bow.

Yeah.. can we chat please?

@Captain24 of course darlin 😊

You wanna discuss or distract?

I’m sick of being me @Jynx so definitely distract please. Only if you have time.