I can’t cope

Hey there @Captain24

How are you today? I'm here for a chat if you needed 🙂

Sending you hugs,

Amber22

I don’t see any reason for staying other than Pix and Jett. @amber22. They would probably be better off anyway.

I'm sorry that today is a tough one, I'm here for you.

They definitely would not be better off, you are an amazing dog mum to them and they love you so much.

I'm going to send you a check in email to see how you're going ❤️ @Captain24

I’m disappointed in my CM. She Is usually really good. I sent her an in depth email last week. All I got today was that she is sorry but she is unavailable and I seem to be in a really bad way. Just hang on. She hopes to be at my Pdoc appointment tomorrow.

It just shows me that no one in my life actually cares.

We care for you! @Captain24

That is disappointing when you feel like she isn't supporting you as best as she could, but I hope that she is there for you in your appointment tomorrow.

How do you feel about your appointment coming up?

Scared and I don’t wanna go @amber22

That's so understandable - what might be helpful before you go into the appointment that could help relieve some of that scared feeling? @Captain24

I really don’t know @amber22. I have a dietitian appointment in the morning as well.

I usually have a few cigarettes but they aren’t an option. I’m already stressing about the Pdoc appointment. My CM just said that she will be there. So that’s a start.

I thought I would try and look nice by actually doing my hair, maybe that would help me feel a little better. Not that I’m big on appearance though.

Other than that I don’t know where to start. Everything that I try I can’t focus on.

How did the dietician appointment go? @Captain24

I'm glad that your CM is available to be there for you tomorrow, I hope the support will help ease a bit of the nerves for the appointment. Maybe you can try do some deep breathing or something that might help to relax you before you go in?

Doing your hair sounds lovely, and it's a great act of self care as well.

You're doing really well, I'm sitting with you

The dietitian is tomorrow morning. @amber22.

I’ll be doing a lot of deep breathing.

I feel like I shouldn’t have sent my CM the detailed email on how I am. It was really open and honest. I’m hoping that they don’t hold it against me in the appointment. Mum has already said she will only look after the dogs for a week. I’m worried that they won’t give me that option tomorrow.