I can’t cope

@Captain24 wishing you a good day today hon

@NatureLover I think she just wants a gage of what I do with my time during the day. I know I spend too much time deep into my thoughts.

Morning @NatureLover.

How are you going?

Yes I’m safe. Thank you for checking. It was pretty hard but I guess that is my life now.

Thank you. I just feel like I’m constantly repeating the same things and I’m in a constant struggle every day.

Jett goes once a week for 3 weeks. I picked this session as I knew the instructor better and I wanted her to meet Jett. He does miss the fourth week which is graduation as we will be on holidays.

I hope you have a good day.

Thanks @Snowie.

My CM has called in sick so I miss my one and only appointment this week. Unless she fits me in tomorrow. I needed her but it’s the first time since I’ve been seeing her that she has had to cancel for being sick. She is 71!

How are you? I hope you are having a better day?

Oh dear @Captain24 that is unfortunate about your CM. It's hard when we need our supports. Hopefully she will be able to fit you in tomorrow.

I'm ok, just trying to find the motivation to go to the bank and supermarket. Run out of milk and bread so really need to get there.

I hope she can @Snowie. But it is what it is.

Motivation is so hard. I think it’s even harder when you have to do it. Somehow, we manage to find it. Other than heading down the street is there anything else you have planned?

I should start cleaning up my house as it's disgusting.

Unfortunately sometimes things are out of our control @Captain24

It is hard to find the motivation but I need to. S starts school tomorrow too, so have to get him some snacks to take.

I changed all the bed linen the other day so really need to fold all of that. It's just sitting in my laundry taking up room.

When my house is messy I just try and concentrate on doing 1 or 2 rooms a day. That way I don't get too overwhelmed with everything. But then again with two teenagers it is always messy. Funny thing is is that when I turn the wifi off their rooms get cleaned very quickly!!

Have you got much to do?

There not really a lot @Snowie. The media room is just a 5 minute job. The living room is basically pack up toys and vacuum. The kitchen, if I stack the dishwasher and pack away the stuff on the island, it will probably look better. So it’s not really much to make it look half decent. But OMG the ironing! I don’t actually have any clothes to wear as everything needs to ironed.

I love the wifi! Ours was always that we weren’t allowed outside. We could do whatever we wanted as long as it was inside! But the second we weren’t allowed out in the backyard our rooms got done quick as well! Imagine using that as a threat these days. 😜

Things have just taken a really really dark turn. It’s not good. I’m thinking the best thing is to go to bed. It’s not fair on Jett but I think it’s for the best.

Sorry.

I hope you get up the street.

Hey @Captain24

Sending you hugs and I'm here if you wanted to chat at all, I see you're about to get into bed so feel free to reach out after your sleep. You're not alone here ❤️

I hate the ironing too @Captain24

I hope that some sleep helps hon. Sending love and hugs 💜💜

I feel very alone @amber22. I’m just lying in bed. Fighting so many thoughts. So strong urges.