I can’t cope

Hey @Captain24 I have read that ADHD shares some traits with bipolar. Well diagnosis seems to pretty hard for either regardless. It sounds like you are doing what you can to build up again, doing constructive things and so on.

I was reading back and saw you were having trouble with sleep. I used to have insomnia and have some advice, it might be something you have already tried or it might just be impossible or useless but it is a technique I came up with to not go insane and it still works for me. Let me know if you want to hear it or not.

I think @Snowie is smart, being nice to yourself and remembering your good points is so important, and a habit you can acquire and also fall out of I feel like.

All the best to you I hope things get better

Having to keep a timeline of what you do in a day is hard @Snowie. I couldn’t do that. I was suppose to track of something but I had to stop as it was way too triggering seeing what had and hadn’t happened.

Sometimes bed days are good and needed. If it wasn't for Jett I’d probably be having more bed days.

Hi @Acanthiza. I wouldn't be surprised if she had bipolar instead of ADHD but there is no way I’m suggesting that to her! Lol.

I’ve been trying to distract myself today. It hasn’t been easy and as the day wears on it’s getting a lot harder. I’m getting to the point of no return.

Yes please let me know what you do.. this isn’t anything I’ve experienced until the last couple of weeks. Oh other than when I’ve been hypo. My Pdoc keeps asking about my sleep and I say it’s fine as it always has been. Sleep has never been an issue. This next appointment could be really interesting.

@Captain24my trouble sleeping (also outside of hypomania lol) was/is because of anxiety. Worrying about things and circular thinking and all that so who knows if it is helpful but...
I basically struck upon a thing where I let all the thoughts and things flow along like a river, not focusing on anything. You can let thoughts crop up but then they have to move on. The trick is to like have free association with words and phrases just melting into other ones. Images and sounds and things all moving along and changing into each other. I think this helps me sleep because it is like dreaming? Or something?? Anyway it is a very specific thing to me so not sure if it could help anyone else but worth a try if you can.
Otherwise all I have is general advice which I am sure you have already tried all of. Regular exercise, no caffeine before bed blah blah blah we have all heard it a million times

Thanks for sharing @Acanthiza. I’ll give it a try. Oh everyone loves to tell you all about sleep hygiene! Because we work shift work they bring people in all the time to discuss how to manage your sleep. It’s quite funny when the people presenting have never done shift work. It doesn’t always work like the textbooks say!

Just got home from puppy preschool. Jett was very timid. Oh and also the littlest. One pup was a mastiff so she was huge.

It did break up my afternoon and I went on my own so I didn’t have mum with me. It was a pretty brave thing to do I think. But that has left me not so good.

Hey @Captain24 🙂

Firstly, kudos to you for taking Jett to puppy preschool and navigating that on your own!

It's completely understandable that such experiences can be a bit overwhelming, especially without support. It's okay to feel a bit down after putting yourself out there. Progress comes with its highs and lows. 💜 Would you like to share more about how you are feeling?

Heya @lavenderhaze

How are you?

I have been struggling really badly lately. So heading out tonight with Jett was a massive achievement but at the same time it had to be done.

I think I gave too much. It’s pushed me back to where I was before I went. At the moment every minute is a struggle to get through. I can’t see any further than that. At the moment though… there is no future.

I am okay, thank you for asking @Captain24! 🙂

I hear you and want you to know that you're not alone in feeling this way. I've definitely experienced those tough days where every minute feels like a battle. It's okay to acknowledge that struggle and take it one moment at a time.

There might be setbacks, but that doesn't diminish the strength and effort you've put into your journey. It's okay to take a step back, breathe, and focus on getting through each moment.

If you need someone to talk to or just share what's on your mind, I'm here for you. There's always hope for a brighter future, even when it may seem distant right now. 💝

I’m glad all is good with you @lavenderhaze.

This is a never ending depressive episode. It is the worst I have ever had. I have never felt so much despair for so long. There’s a lot more but it can’t be said on here.