I can’t cope

Thanks @NatureLover. I do like to give back to others. I’ve just been struggling with it lately.

Im about to jump into bed now.

Have a good day with whatever you decide is best.

Hey @Captain24 hope your sleeping well right now.

what are some of the things you are gonna do this week to keep yourself busy? Any new Lego on the go?

Hey @Bow

Ive just woken up but it was a good sleep. It’ll get me through until I go to bed tonight like a normal person! 😂

I have to take down the Christmas lights, mow the front yard and mow the backyard. They are the biggest things I have to do. If I can achieve those that would be great.

I also want to get stuck into the diamond art of Angel. I need to get that finished but there is still so much work to go. I still haven't completed the home alone Lego house yet. I’m nearly halfway through.

How are you going? I’ve read about your tests and specialist.

Sounds like a good list of things to get you through the week @Captain24 and glad to read that you had a good sleep.

im trying to be ok. Yep had cardio tests done this morning. Was suppose to get bloods done too but I opted not to.

You must be so over getting bloods done @Bow. I’m only getting them done monthly and that’s enough. I’ve got an appointment with my CM tomorrow so I’ll get them done while I’m there. If I remember the sheet.

I really hope these tests come back ok for you.

I have read how much you are struggling right now. I’m proud of you for being able to keep pushing through. You have more strength than you realise I think.

I have a question.. feel free not to answer it. We had a girl at work last night breathe in some fumes. We thought she may have to go to hospital to be checked out. Since I was sitting around doing nothing the asked me to drive her. She didn’t have to go but I started to panic about going to ED. It would have been my first time in ED after being taken in. Is this normal?

I am very much over getting my bloods done @Captain24 its weekly at the moment and some times multiple times a week. My potassium is low at the moment, but I really don’t care.

Panicking about going to the ED. I’d say it’s probably normal. It was a traumatic experience for you and you don’t want to be back there. I don’t necessarily panic, but I do get rather anxious. It’s an uncomfortable place to be. It can be triggering. Medical trauma is a thing. I’ve obviously been there a lot and do experience the anxiety and the triggers when there. I am also very on edge when there with others too. Seeing other mh patients. Some I recognise and think do they recognise me too? Same with the security guards and nurses.

Multiple times a week is a lot @Bow. I guess it means that they can keep a closer eye on things.

I was in the safe room on my own with the security guard sitting 5 metres away when I was there. I was worried that if I had to take her that the same nurses and security guard were on. At least I now feel a little less silly for feeling that way. Thank you.

Have you done much today?

Yep tired of being poked and pricked @Captain24

glad you didn’t have to take your co worker.

I had my tests this morning, came home and did my treadmill stuff. Lay on my spikey mat for a while and then finished labelling D stuff for school and now I’ve been doing some painting.

I don’t feel well now. Nausea. Chest don’t feel ok. And I’m tired.

what have you been up to this arvo?

I use to love getting school stuff @Bow. I still walk through stationary aisles looking at stuff. I also miss covering school books. I loved doing that.

Sorry you aren’t feeling well and having chest pain.

Free hand painting or paint by numbers?

I’ve done the front lawn and part of the back. But my bins are full so if the clippings settle a bit and there is more room I’ll finish it tomorrow. Hopefully. I don’t feel well after that either. Now I have nothing left in the tank other than sit on the lounge.

Oh I love stationary too @Captain24 and I enjoy walking the isles too. Loved helping D pick out her stuff and going to office works. I use to spend a fortune on stationary when I worked. They would supply the basics but I liked all the pretty stuff!

this is a free hand painting. I sketched an image weeks ago and did some of it shortly after but wasn’t keen on the colours. So finally had some motivation to go back and change the colours. Hopefully now I will keep at it.

our lawns need doing again too 😩 it’s kinda my job but I’m really not well enough to do it and like you…. About pass out on the couch afterwards. I talked with my dietitian about mowing the lawns last appointment. Cause I can spend hours on the treadmill, but 5 mins mowing the lawns and I gotta have a break cause I am so breathless. She said my body has adapted to the treadmill. But mowing the lawn is a whole nother thing!
Our green bin fills quickly too. The front lawn fills it and then there is no room for anything else and we have an old tree we are trying to get rid of too. With the rate grass is growing at the moment they need to empty bins weekly.