I can’t cope

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@Captain24 wrote:

I don’t even know why I’m bothering to write this. There isn’t really anyone around. That wants to know.

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Hi @Captain24 , I definitely want to know. But maybe I forgot to explain, I'm usually only online in the early mornings, plus I had my volunteer job yesterday (I have that twice a week).

Being around only early mornings means it's hard to "chat" with people...I'm sorry 😢

I'm sad your psych and GP appts didn't go well. That's rough. Also that you're just getting by minute to minute 🫂

I hope your appt with your CM goes well today... 🤞

Thanks @NatureLover.

I really like waking up to your posts. It’s nice to know someone cares. so I do really appreciate them.

Sometimes it’d be nice to have someone during the day to chat too. But I do know that I’m just too much for most people.

It’s ok though. I’m pretty use to being alone.

At least here it gives me a bit of an outlet.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve had enough of trying to get through each day. Do I let her take it out of my hands? I’m scared to. Where will I end up? How do I tell my family? How do I tell work?

Maybe it’s not as bad as I think. Maybe she knows a way to get me through. Maybe I am not past help. Maybe she can help. Maybe there is something I haven’t tried.

Maybe she will make me feel less alone. I don’t know if that’s possible. Every aspect of my life I’m alone. I do know that I shouldn’t be on my own though. I’m not comfortable to be on my own. But I’m not in a place to be around anyone either.

Thanks @creative_writer. I wish someone could make it all better.

I feel really alone, it’s gotten worse after the Ambos took me away. That’s what solidified the fact that I’m completely alone.

I’ll just have to wait and see what happens when I see my CM soon.

Hope all is ok with you?

I hope you are ok ? @creative_writer.

Im not sure if I’ll see my CM she has been taken off for an emergency.

She just came and seen me. I have to wait while she heads up to Ed to get someone transferred to the next town. At least there are no beds there for me. This person has just taken the last one.

I’m home. I’m not really sure I should be but my CM has faith in me. I’m glad someone has. She is really concerned though.

She has said it’s 100% bipolar depression.

I have to try and go to work tomorrow and see if that can be a distraction to get me through the next few days.

Im not sure I can.