I can’t cope

I need an escape from everything. @Snowie

What do you have planned for the day?

We're hearing you and hearing how hard it is. Please know you are not alone. It is a place many others have been before so we recognise it's not easy.

Well done on having the courage to reach out to the community here. That in itself is not easy. It can be so much harder to just hide away, yet you have been able to push yourself to reach out. That is an achievement in itself. @Captain24 Recognise that.

You are worthy. You deserve to be here and be supported.

Hugs.

You too @Snowie . We are here for you.

Hey @Captain24 hope you can get a bit of a nap in today. Can you lock the dogs in a safe room? Rest is probably really important for you at the moment.

I understand all those horrible feelings and stuff from when the police rock up at your door. It’s a pretty traumatic experience to go through when you are already so vulnerable. I always walk away from them incidents thinking that police need some more training in dealing with mental health patients. A bit of gentleness and compassion can go along way. It has happened to me many times.

Hoping that you can get the support you need today. I know you have made contact with your CM and a friend. Don’t forget the SANE line too. And SCBS, I’ve found them a little bit helpful to just chat with and process stuff, not always because I’m struggling with SI. I came across this service too ages ago. https://letss.org.au/ it’s peer supported, so no crisis. But they could be a good option to chat about your feelings about what happened too. And we are also here 💕

Is there anything you can do to escape @Captain24? Like some sort of activity/craft. I find I can sometimes escape when reading. I get so much into the book that I loose myself in it. It doesn't always work but at least I tried it.

Is Pix up for taking walks yet?

Still in my pj's and oodie and really thinking about not getting changed!! Have no real energy nor desire to do much.

I might give SANE a call later. Thanks @Bow that’s a good idea.

I can try and do some diamond art when they settle down a little. @Snowie

My house is open plan so there is no safe room for them. Kieko has stitches so I have to keep an eye on her.

Pj’s and oodie sounds good. It’s really cold here today but the dogs keep jumping all over me. So old clothes it is for me.

I should stay way @tyme but I just can’t be alone today. It’s not ok for me to be alone.

This is how together I am. I did a load of washing on Monday and went out and took it off the line. I go out into the backyard 10 minutes ago and there is my washing basket with my clothes neatly folded. How I didn’t bring the basket in, I don’t know. Isn’t it a natural response! So after 40mil of rain between yesterday and last night. They are now hanging on the line again drip drying!

I hope that gave everyone a chuckle. It did me!

I think we have all done things like that @Captain24 but yes it did give me a little chuckle!!

Staying connected somewhere would be a good idea if that is what you need. Perhaps ringing Sane might be a good idea. I have found them helpful in the past.

Awwww @Captain24 ,

That's okay. Washing can wait lol. It reminds me of my sister's in-laws. My sister did a washing and hung them up to dry. The next thing you know, the in-laws have brought all the wet washing back in and followed them. They thought the clothes were damp....rather than wet! My sister blew up.

Keiko has stitches? Does Keiko have an Elizabethan collar on?

Nah, no stress if you can't be alone. I'm here, others are hear and we value your company.

It's so hot outside. I think it's about 32 degrees. I'm hanging for a coffee but it's only 11am. My parents have been really good whilst I've been in Sydney. My sister and the kids have been the ones to irritate me the most! Yes, the sister I normally live with in Melb! I haven't been that irritated and angry in yonks! But she's pushed so many buttons. I reckon it's because of the humidity here, lack of sleep, I don't have independence in terms of not having my own vehicle to get away. Also, my sister is very different to me, She's a very social person, whilst I'm a very homely person. When we go and visit people, she stays for hours while I just want to go home and sit in aircon! I can't manage the humidity here... hence I snap...

I'm going to go out for an iced coffee and a snack later...

Ssshhh… 3 dogs are asleep!! Yay

Thanks for staying with me.

Your poor sister! @tyme. At least they bought them in and did just take them off the line and forget! How you can walk in with out the basket is a mystery @tyme.

Keiko got desexed. And she does have the collar but Jett thinks it’s fun to bite it and hang off it. Needless to say I can’t leave them alone! Also the is 5 bones on the floor and all 3 have to have the same bone. Aarrgghh

It’s freezing here it’s around 24 degrees.

Im glad your parents have been good, I know you were worried. It is quite funny that the sister you live with is annoying you. But I’m the same. If I have to go see someone or someone comes here. I’m happy for an hour and then that’s it. Times up!

Weather does play havoc with your health and mood. Especially when your not use to it. For me 32 is just warm! I like it 36+. Our heat lately has been mostly dry during the day and as the afternoon wears on the humidity rises rapidly.

It suck’s not having a car. Mind you when we go away I struggle to be allowed to use my car. I have to be with my parents most of the time. I constantly tell dad that when he goes to visit his sister that I hate going and to leave me at the accommodation, but no, I get dragged along and have to sit in the car because they won’t allow dogs inside.

I feel like an iced chocolate now! Are you going with anyone or is it walking distance? When do you go away?

Hey @Captain24 ,

Well, we have three cars at my parents' place but I feel stupid taking a car if we are going to same place and at the same time. Especially because parking is so hard in the suburbs. I really have to consider just taking one of the cars though because I can't stand hanging around.

Yummm.... iced choc or iced coffee on a hot summer's day! Delish! I like almond croissants too. It's a short walk from where I am so it's totally attainable!

I'm going away on Monday. So I've got a few more days which will be good. As I said, my parents have made our visit so so comfy. I can't complain. But the noise from all the hyperactive, highly-excited is a bit too much. 5 kids every night running through the house playing hide-and-seek. The next thing you know, BANG! Then screaming and crying. They are all tired to be honest, but are excited to be with their cousins.

Oh well... I'm counting down the days to have quietness now.

Hey @Captain24 ,

I didn't finish answering your questions! Sorry!

Yes, we complete incident reports and notes for members as part of our legal and ethical responsibilities. These are securely stored and only accessible to authorised personnel. Please reach out if you have any questions regarding confidentiality or privacy. If we share your information with people, we will ask for your consent first.

The only time confidentiality is overridden is when there is a need to escalate to emergency services - when we have reasonable belief that a person is at risk of harm to themselves or others.