I can’t cope

Hugs @Captain24 .

We are sitting with you.

Hey @Captain24 here for you hun. I know reading words on a screen isn't the same as having someone with you, but every post here is from a person who cares about you. We're here beside you. I'm sorry last night was so rough, and I hope you can catch up on some sleep this afternoon. Huggles 💜

Hey @Captain24 here with you. So sorry things are so difficult.

Thanks everyone.

I really do need to talk but I don’t know how to say what I need to. I don’t know what I need to say.

I feel like I have lost myself in all of this. I’ve been totally crushed. I hate what it’s doing. There is nothing of me left.

I hate what has happened in the last 20hrs. The fear, the shame, the humiliation, the lack of dignity.

Im totally lost. I’m totally broken. I feel like I’m on the verge of a complete and utter breakdown.

I’m totally alone. I just really want someone to hold me while I breakdown and tell me that everything will be ok.

Hugs @Captain24 . I'm holding you tight.

Feel the pressure.

Feel the warmth.

Notice your clothes pressing against your skin.

Just notice.

I'm jumping in on this with @tyme - we got you in a biiiig group hug @Captain24. It is all gonna be okay. It's okay if you don't have enough hope right now, I've got plenty for us both. We gotchu.

Thanks @tyme. That was needed

The last 24 hrs have been the hardest and scariest I’ve ever had. I’m not going to forget it any time soon. It was really traumatic. I am literally traumatised from it all.

I don’t want to face anymore.

I’ve just had enough.

I have nothing

Im going back to bed and hope to wake up tomorrow with all of this just being a bad dream.

Please stay with me?

Thanks @Jynx. Thanks for staying with me last night. I appreciate you staying back for me. The thing that I don’t like about the forums was I was in desperate need for support in the early hours and there isn’t any available.

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'm with you. I'm staying with you. Sorry, you can't get rid of me any time soon 🙂

I'm hearing you about the need for support in the early hours. We recognise that, and it is something SANE is working on. But honestly speaking, we are not quite there yet to get peer workers 24/7. I just want you to know that management is keenly aware of the needs and it's front an foremost at the moment.

When I even consider how far peer work has come, it's truly been amazing. When I first connected on these forums, there were no peer workers at all. SANE forums have really grown exponentially in many aspects.

With what happened last night, I'm hearing you. I've been through these experiences. Crisis intervention is not pretty. I hope you can work with your CM to organise a time for a planned admission. It will make a huge difference.

I want to re-iterate that you are not a waste of space. You mean a lot to all of us and we are with you all the way.

tyme

Of course @Captain24 I'm glad I was able to stay with you too.

I reckon you're not wrong, is it something you've put forward for the co-design? Cos you're right, mental health stuff doesn't adhere to the regular 9-5 hours ay.

I'm logging off soon, but @tyme will still be here to sit with you. Sending you another big cuddle, and I'll chat with you again tomorrow if you like 💜