I can’t cope

There’s people on here with real problems @Jynx. I’d probably be wasting your time.

Where I’m sitting at can’t be said on here. So I guess that, in itself, says it all. I don’t even know how anyone can help or support. I feel like I’m past the point of help.

You could never be a waste of my time @Captain24!

Tell you what, I'll flick you an email to check in, sounds like things are pretty rough for you hun.

Yay, a huge well done for going out the front yesterday and also washing your hair @Captain24 ! And also for being gentle on yourself, although I think maybe that the bad thoughts overwhelmed that last night? 😢

And OMG, 32 is "warm" but not "hot"? I'm like @tyme , I can't stand humidity! (I live in Melbourne)

And @Shaz51 I was amazed to read the dry heat zaps your energy - for me it's the humidity that zaps it.

Thanks @NatureLover.

Yeah.. for me it doesn’t get hot until it reaches about 38. I love summer.

Im in a really deep dark hole that I can’t seem to climb out of. I have learnt that it’s ok to only manage a little task for the day and to be gentle. The sad thing is, it’s only because I don’t have any fight left in me. I’m not sure that that makes sense.

It did become too much last night.

How are things going for you?

You must be in northern Australia @Captain24 ? Not hot till 38! 😮

I actually think that sometimes having no fight left in us can teach us things. I know I changed a lot of things for the better when I ran out of fight. I stopped pretending as I had no emotional energy left (although I still pretend, to protect myself, with my abusive father). I stopped many practical things like ironing and polishing shoes that I could live without. I had to accept my new limitations, which helped me not to be a perfectionist any more. I also learnt I had to take care of myself as no-one else was going to.

However, the deep dark black hole isn't good 😭

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@Captain24 wrote:

It did become too much last night.

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I'm sad to hear 😢

I'm struggling at the moment. Really want/need to just stay home for a week at least. But I'm getting by sort-of. Thanks for asking when you are so depressed 😢

I really hope you can see a speck of hope and feel a bit stronger...sending hugs 💙

I live regional NSW @NatureLover. 4 hrs west of Sydney. Definitely in drought and heat territory. Most of the time we get excited for it to rain.

I’m thinking is a good thing. I’m usually not happy unless my house is perfect. All that looks ok right now is the open plan kitchen/dining/living. If it’s all the capacity I have in me to do than that’s ok.

Sorry you are struggling. Are you able to take some time out?

Aww, I wish I could send you some rain @Captain24 ...we have plenty in Melbourne.

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@Captain24 wrote:

If it’s all the capacity I have in me to do than that’s ok.

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I love this - well done 🙂 And I hope it will relieve stress on you.

I am tempted to take tomorrow off my volunteer job. I took last Thursday off, but it wasn't enough. It would help if I could stay home today, but I have a 70th birthday lunch. Thanks

Anyone around?

Not sure if you are still here @Captain24 but I'm around for a bit.

What you up too?

Hey @Snowie

Im really struggling. I’m a real mess right now.

How are you?