I can’t cope

Thanks @outlander. I wasn’t trying to brush you off, I just know that you are struggling yourself. I just don’t want to add to that.

I think I need to have that conversation with my psych as it isn’t really helpful. It does make me feel worse.

My GP is going to order bloods and I don’t know how that is going to go.

I know others are struggling right now, especially those that have a hard time at this time of year. I’m just struggling to not do anything stupid to myself and just can’t help. It makes me feel like a terrible person.

I am reading along though and following. I do care and thinking of you all. I do hope that everyone understands.

@Captain24 I agree with @outlander hon. You can't drink from an empty cup. You need to look after yourself first.

I hope today looks a little brighter for you 💕💕

Thanks @Snowie. I am thinking of you. Just sometimes it’s all too hard.

Pix has a rehab appointment soon the I have a GP appointment. Not looking forward to that. I haven’t seen him since I saw my Pdoc and she wrote him a lengthy report and requests with my ED.

Then I have to leave to go to work. I’m not even sure what time I finish. Then I work tomorrow dayshift and I’m done until after Christmas.

Hopefully keeping busy will help me. Lunch and dinner are at my house. So I have a lot to do. Plus I’ve neglected my house work so it all has to be done.

I am wishing you a better day today as-well

@Captain24 I hope her rehab is going well and your gp appt. goes ok. I'm not sure of your relationship with your gp, but hopefully they can help you.

Sometimes keeping busy can help. Especially with work and getting ready for xmas day. Putting aside Sunday to clean my whole house for xmas.

She is really sore @Snowie so hopefully the laser and massage helps her today. I’ll have to get the girls on the desk to watch Jett for me as he can’t come in with the laser. I’m sure they will love to!

My GP is really good and supportive. I’m able to tell him anything and he listens without judgment. I won’t have time to do the blood tests today so I’ll have to get them done on Friday after I’ve done my grocery shopping.

Im hoping that I can finish work at 7 tonight and not 9. Im not sure what time I finish tomorrow either. I guess they will let me know. Light duties makes it all so hard. But at least there is no nightshifts this week.

I’ve written myself a list of what I need to do over the coming days. But yes.. Sunday will be a full house cleaning day here too.

I hope that H and kids help you…

Hopefully it does help Pix @Captain24 It's hard seeing our fur babies in pain and not being able to do much about it. I'm sure the girls on the desk will love it, everyone loves little puppies!!

I'm glad you have a supportive gp that you can talk to about.

I have a list too of what needs to be done. Hoping I can do it tomorrow to avoid the crowds on the weekend. It will be so busy.

I guess at least with light duties you won't have to work overnight. At least that is one good thing.

Reason 473 for not having kids.

I’m sitting at the GP surgery and there is a horrible, obnoxious, nasty and loud boy. Old enough to know better.

It’s sending my anxiety through the roof. I am already anxious enough about my appointment

Hey @Captain24

Oh I am sorry that your anxiety is being triggered at the moment. How are you feeling now and how was your appointment?

Sitting with you