I can’t cope

I love spiders @Captain24 - not on me though! I do enjoy a good bug hunt in the bush! Bugs are sooooo fascinating to me! Such weird little alien looking things haha.

Aww bless! Yeah wow that's quite an undertaking! She'll be very moved I'm sure 😊

I'm off to an expo tomorrow! Won't mention which one for anonymity reasons but it should be wild. What about yourself?

I’m definitely not a big person @Jynx. Especially spiders! I’m such a country gal in so many ways but when it comes to creepy crawleys definitely not!

Expo sounds interesting. You will have to fill us in after.

I don’t have anything other than washing and ironing. Oh and puppy training!

Haha took me a second to realise you meant bug person @Captain24 because I was about to come in with some phat validation like 'nooo you are wonderfully big and bright!' lol

If I see anything particularly cool I'll definitely share!

Oh puppy training, so full on! Are they gonna go to puppy school?

Sorry typo! @Jynx But I’m saying that I am a big person! Thats where my supposed ED has stemmed from.

Photos will be awesome.

Yeah he will go to puppy preschool but I thought I’d start training him now. I remember a lot of it from when Pix went.

Do you have any other exciting adventures coming up?

Sorry.. I’m using you for distraction.

@Captain24 of course! Distraction is good, am very glad to be able to assist 😁

Oh true! Yes second time around is always easier. Good to start em young ay!

I'm flying up north to stay with family in NSW over the holiday period. Should be nice, they live right near the beach. You?

Thanks @Jynx. I’ve already done something to myself today and don’t want to again. I have a physio appointment on Monday and she is going to see it all.. the shame😢

He is already learning his name but I figured if I start early it’ll all sink in quicker.

That sounds nice.. the beach is always good. How long are you staying for?

As for me I’ve got nothing. I have to live vicariously through you! 😜 Mum and Dad will come to my house for Christmas as they don’t have air con and it’s suppose to be quite warm. My life is really boring. I either work or I’m at home alone. There is absolutely nothing in my life. Maybe that’s why I want to give up on it.

@Captain24 the shame is tough but remember - coping is coping. You are still worthy and deserving of support no matter what.

I'm up for 10 days, which will be nice. Bit exhausting as well, as family can be. Hopefully will be tame and no big dramas!

Hey look, it's a bloody common experience to be so exhausted from work that there's little time for the joyful things. If you did have time/energy, what would you be doing?

Yeah but it’s a work physio @Jynx and I just did it again. 😢 It’s like I can’t stop. I’m just useless and hopeless.

10 days with family sounds a little tough. Will you still be around here while you are there? Also, if it’s ok to ask, do they all accept you for who you are? Sorry was just reading through the other thread and I’m interested. I say I’m straight but for me really it’s open. I think you fall in love with the person not the gender.

I don’t know what I would do. Here is too far away from anything. Plus I don’t seem to have any interest in anything anymore. If I lived near a beach I would probably go there but for me it’s 4 hours away.

We are going at the end of Feb but Pix won’t be fully healed by then. So it’s going to be tough. She isn’t use to being on the lead at the beach.

@Captain24 not useless nor hopeless hun. We are not our actions, nor are we our thoughts. We are not what people judge us to be, and their judgement does not dictate our worth.

I am taking some time off while I'm up there, so I'll be gone for a bit from end of next week.

It is okay to ask! They accept me, even if they don't understand. I changed my name a few years ago, and sometimes I still get the occasional deadname (trans term for the name you were given at birth) and a bit more frequently, get misgendered. But they don't actively try to cause me harm and haven't disowned me or anything, so I'm one of the lucky ones.

I agree with falling for the person, not the gender as well. It's very freeing.

Beach obviously calls to you quite a lot! What about crafty hobbies, or video games, or photography or skating or things like that? Being away from the areas you love is tough for sure though.

Aww unable to go sprinting into the waves, or chasing down seagulls, the poor thing haha. But still, going anywhere with you is likely a dream come true for lil Pix!

I’m in quite a bit of trouble @Jynx

I could see if my wii still works and play Mario. That’d be something different.

You are really lucky to have such an open minded family. How old were you when you (I don’t know the right terminology) converted?

Also how does trans and non-binary go together?

We will really miss you while you are away!!