I can’t cope

I totally understand why that would be triggering for you, especially if you just asked for a simple thing like moving their car @Captain24

I hope that you and Pix can have some nice time at the beach together now, and hopefully tonight will be better for you. Sometimes some time alone and space away work wonders for me.

Breathing through the feeling and appreciating where you are is such an amazing way to get through everything going on, you're doing so well.

Aw thank you, I hope so too! Don't ever apologise! I ask because I care!!

Thanks @Melbcoffeesnob @tyme @amber22

Thank you all for your support.

Ive just come back from walking Pix along the beach and have had a shower and finally washed my salt filled hair.

Yes @tyme it isn’t unexpected. But at the same time it doesn’t make it any easier.

It’s still really tense.

Im doing a lot of deep breathing and I focused on Pix enjoying herself at the beach. I just forgot everything going on and experienced her joy. She ran into the water. She climbed the rocks. She just generally had a good time.

We are about to have a tense dinner and then go down to the marina for mums damn gelato.

Sorry.. dumped again.

Dumping makes me realise how much hopeless and useless human.

Even though I’ve been horrible with my last post. There has been some highlight in my day

Polly want a cracker? @Captain24

That's beautiful

Do you stay in the same place as your parents? As in the same house, room etc? @Captain24

I hope the break away from them helps.

Have you ever spoken to them about how their conversations are very triggering for you? I can sort of see that after the weight convo, you were probably already heightened which would inevitably make you feel worse with EVERYTHING they say. I'm sorry you feel like you are treated like a kid...

That Macaws name was Elvis! @tyme. Quite fitting for an Elvis fan! I had 2 of them on me at one stage but I can’t post those photos.

We are all staying in one house. I did enjoy my time away from them.

The whole weight thing is really triggering me. I have said I don’t want to talk about it. But she won’t let up. I have so much more to say but I won’t.

I have spoken to them in the past that I don’t like the way they speak to each other and the way they treat me. It made things so much worse.

Needing to go to bed early last night was actually good.

I can’t even really explain how I feel. I am disappointed in the way of acted on here.

Anyway back to last night. What’s a growth counsellor?

 So much for a bad knee!

Someone looks like they are living the dream!

Is that rock??? @Captain24

Upon first glance, it looked like:

TW

A growth counsellor is someone who you talk to about issues in work, life, the world in order to gain a different perspective on things and grow from experiences @Captain24

The coach I was paired up with is a psychologist, researcher and teacher. She also does external supervision for counsellors etc.

After having such a hectic few days, just spending that 50 mins with her to get fresh insight into the situation was so so helpful. It's given me things to think about and work on in order to enact change in improve systems and processes.

I felt this huge wave of relief after meeting with her.

OMG @tyme I never really looked at it like that until now. Yes it is rock! He knee is really sore now though.

Did work set you up with the coach or did you find them yourself?

It’s so good that it was beneficial for you. Just having a different of eyes can make all the difference. It can make you realise that it isn’t necessarily bad and work out what are priorities and different approaches to it all.