I can’t cope

T/W mentions ED behaviours

OMG.. I am so over my parents. All they do is argue. Roll their eyes at me when the other isn’t looking.

Im tired of hearing the same things over and over again. Dad constantly saying ‘how dumb of me’ every time someone says something he doesn’t agree with. Mum constantly telling the same stories. Mum constantly talking about her weight. Which is a massive trigger for me and I’m starting to freak out, I’ve eaten way too much. I’ve lost control.

Im tired of someone saying something to dad about his driving and then he drives out of control. The speeds are ridiculous. There is no need for 80 in a 50 zone.

We are currently sitting here at the house. The sun is shining it’s a beautiful day. Why can’t we make the most of it. Why am I not allowed to go out on my own. Maybe this is why I can’t get my

mood up. Maybe this is what I deserve. Maybe I’m just a horrible person. Maybe I’m a really bad daughter. Maybe I’m just an inconsiderate, selfish person.

Sorry I just needed to get this all out. Im just sick of everything. I feel like I’m going insane.

@Captain24 💌💌

Feeling a little bit rough today.

Hey @Captain24

I'm here if you wanted to chat 💘

Heya @amber22

I don’t really know what is going on. I just feel really out of sorts. I think it’s a

mix of anxiety and feel overwhelmed. Funny I should say that after last night.

My heart rate is high, I have tingling in my hands and feet and I feel lightheaded. So much is going on here on holidays. I’ve just been for a swim in the ocean, which is my happy place. Im alone and away from my parents. So that is some space I need.

Everything I say and do seems to upset them. I feel like a child. They do this to my often. I should be use to it. They just make everything so hard.

Thankfully they are going home on Sunday and I go home Monday. I also won’t see them for over a week as dad is starting his radiation on Tuesday.

I think just spending so much time with them is overwhelming. The only thing I can do on my own is come to the beach.

I also made an accidental stuff up last night and I’m suffering the consequences today but I can say anything and just have to push through it and keep functioning. The good thing about it though was I had to go to bed last night really early as it affected me pretty quickly.

Enough about me. How are you going?

I feel so useless and stupid.

Oh I am so sorry that you're feeling overwhelmed today, it's so valid after everything you are feeling and being away too @Captain24 I am glad you got to have a swim, is that something you might do again this afternoon since it seems to help you to relax a little bit?

I think it's good that you're having some space away from everyone while you're on holidays. Sometimes it can get a bit much and you just need some you time, especially if you're finding that your parents are triggering you a bit.

I hope you're feeling a little bit better after some time away and maybe you can go for a walk to the beach and just spend some time by yourself down there this afternoon if the weather is okay where you are. I think alone time when you're feeling overwhelmed really does help so much.

I'm doing okay today, thanks for asking! Glad that it's nearly the weekend and I can relax a bit, I've had a few very overwhelming weeks (it must be a theme!!) so I'm also hoping to escape into my own space for a bit 🙂

I hope you can get some alone time @amber22. Especially if you’ve been so overwhelmed. You deserve it. I hope your weekend is relaxing and peaceful.

I just came back from the beach to pick up Pix to take her to the beach. We were all in the house for 5 minutes and it’s on again. They wouldn’t even move their car so I could get mine out. All mum said was that she wanted to get gelato tonight so they didn’t need to put the car away. They are just so inconsiderate. I said I needed to get my car out but mum repeated the whole gelato thing.

Aarrgghh. It’s just all too much. At least it’s now just Pix and I on the beach.

I need to remind myself to breath through it. I need to settle myself down. I need to remind myself that I love this place and appreciate that I’m here. I won’t be back until the end of February.

Sorry for dumping all this on you.

Hey @Captain24 .

I hear how frustrating your situation is.... yet on the other hand... do you honestly think it was unexpected?

I'm here if you want to chat about it... DEEP BREATHS. You can get through this.

Hry @Captain24

How are you?

You sound like you have some really wonderful strategies for when things get tough, and PS no you're not "dumping on anyone"

We care about you and we are all here to support you.