I can’t cope

I guess you are about to log off @tyme.

Thank you for tonight and I really apologise for my behaviour tonight. I really am ashamed. I am so sorry.

I hope this doesn’t stop you from chatting to me.

Im sorry

One of my outside jobs set it up @Captain24

SANE offers external supervision (both group and individual), but Growth Coaching is outside SANE.

Some other people I've spoken to haven't found it helpful, but I certainly have. They did it because they were given a coach and wanted to 'get it over and done with'. We get 6 sessions a year. I just happen to have a session booked in with her at a time when things were a bit tough.

With my psychologist (who I haven't seen in AGES), I work on more my own emotional state and things in my private-ish life. However, with the Growth Coach, I work on more work-related things and how I can embed change.

Your behaviour? @Captain24

I don't think I saw any 'behaviour'. Remember, you are HUMAN. You do not need to pretend you are not.

It is absolutely a normal response to feel what you have felt today.

Give yourself credit.

We can chat tomorrow if you are on in the evening.

Right now I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore.

You safe @Captain24 ??

you can do this. You have done it other days where you thought it was too hard and you can do it again.

what can you do today to keep yourself safe and distracted?

Sorry I should have said I am safe @Bow. only because I’m stuck with my parents.

While ever we are doing something I am ok. But sitting around listening to the bullshit mum is carrying on with on the phone is hard. Knowing my brother is coming around tonight isn’t making any thing easier.

Cigarette withdrawal doesn’t help either.

Dad wants to leave about 10am tomorrow so then I’ll be in my own. Which is going to be better, I think.

Sorry for this.

How are you feeling today?

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Right now I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore.

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Hope you can cope with today, @Captain24 ...sending wishes for you...

Sounds like the time away when it’s just you and Pix, exploring the beach, is good for you, but the time with your folks in close proximity has been hard @Captain24

When I spend too much time with my mum… or even my older brother, my SIL, I started to get really irritated by their qwerks. Families are complicated eh?

do you have plans for today?

yeah I’m ok. On the treadmill at the moment and then we are going to the shops.

I really don’t know how you do it @Bow. You must be a lot stronger than I am.

Right now I’m sitting in the car while dad sees his sister. They wouldn’t drop me off. It’s even just the little things.

I want to go to the koala park so I’m hoping that’s ok and I’ll he me an Pix time later when I take her down to the beach.

I can’t wait for them to leave tomorrow.

Going to the shops would be nice. Anything you need or just wandering?

Hope you managed to get to the koala park @Captain24 that would have been cute to see. And then the beach.

we just wandered around. Had morning tea. Went into a really nice home depot type shop and they had all their Christmas stuff out, got a few things for the tree. Had to get a big bag of dry cat food too from bigw.

im super tired now. Could really curl up on my bed and have a nap, but I won’t.