I can’t cope

Anything I can do to help @Captain24

Happy to sit/chat with you.

I'm bloody cold! Yesterday was in shorts, today wrapped up in my oodie. Stupid Melb weather!

That's really good that you're able to contact her via email whenever you need @Captain24 Maybe it could be a good idea to check in with her every couple of days to just let her know how you're going, especially with the different dosage for your medication now.

How are you feeling about the changing dosage of your morning medication?

❤️@Snowie

I’ve just done all the housework @Snowie Except for vacuuming and washing the floors. They scare Pix too much and she isn’t ok so I don’t want to add to it. I just have to get the washing off the line and fold my doona cover when the dryer is finished.

I’ve got a candle burning so my house smells nice. I’m going to lay in the sun later when it warms up more. I might do some diamond art too. Hopefully both of those will help with the spiral.

She is good like that @amber22. I will checkin and she wants to monitor my mood changes as I change the meds around.

Im ok with changes as this really out of control extreme mood cycle started with the increase. I’m cutting on back to what it was and leaving the other at the same. It’s the only way of knowing what is causing it and if it helps. The other thing is that it could be my bipolar just out of control.

She really wanted my to see the Pdoc tomorrow but her work is demanding she goes to the other town. She wants to be there so that I don’t leave anything out! I would leave out the attempts and how close it was as I don’t want her to know! But she also thinks my meds need to be looked at ASAP.

How are you going?

My dog gets scared of the vacuum too @Captain24 Must be something scary about them!

You've done well getting through what you have done. Be proud of that.

I'm glad you have got a few things lined up that you can do to help yourself. It's always good to have a plan moving forward.

I’m trying to add self care in my day. @Snowie. I am really working hard at fixing my life. It usually doesn’t help but I have to try.

Pix is really not ok and is just laying around and her tail is constantly down. She isn’t even barking so I’ll leave her be. When she is ready she will come to me.

That means I don’t have to feel guilty for doing things for myself. I’ll also try and take her for a walk tonight and see if that will lift her spirits a little. That is if I pick up and still feel motivated.

Do you walk your dog often?

Ohh I see, that's really good that you can communicate with her when you want. I'm glad that they are reviewing your meds, I hope that it starts to help.

Are you seeing your Pdoc tomorrow by yourself?

I'm going okay thank you! It's a lovely sunny day where I am. I am going to go to do a sauna tonight which I am very keen for! @Captain24

Do you have any plans for the rest of the day?

No.. there has to be someone with me at the appointments @amber22 So now I have to wait until the 16 of November.

It’s sunny here too but very windy. I think we have a total fire ban.

A sauna sounds so nice. It sounds good for MH too. I never thought of it. But surprise surprise we don’t have one here!

Im planning to lay in the sun, get the washing off the line and iron it. Then some diamond art. Unless Pixie needs me and wants some extra care at the moment she is just wanting to be by herself. So I’m letting her be, she will come when she is ready.

Do you have any plans?

It's always good to try and add self care to our days @Captain24

It is hard at times to put ourselves first.

Hopefully Pix will pick up soon. It must be a big change for her too.

I try and get out to walk the dog, probably not as much as I should. We have a good walking path about 50 metres from my house, so normally go there. I know it is good for my MH to get out of the house, just have to get motivated to do it.

I have given my self a huge list of things to accomplish in the next few days. @Snowie. So I’m trying to keep

myself very busy.

I can put myself first at the moment as I don’t have to do anything for mum and dad. It is so nice.

Im sure she will pick up soon. I’ll just keep watching her. She was ok until she went to mums. I think that’s when it hit her.

It’s good that you have a nice walking track so close. It’s hard to find the motivation even though you know it’s good for you. I hope you can push yourself to do it.

Do you have any plans?