I can’t cope

Thanks @Snowie

It was hard to hear but at the same time nothing I haven’t told myself. Hearing it though makes it so much harder to process.

I have to clean my house before mum gets here in 30 mins to pick up her dog. Then I think I should just go to bed.

Im not really ok. Im thinking things I shouldn’t. I shouldn’t be on here at the moment or I will get in to more trouble and I don’t need anything else to go wrong.

Thank you for your thoughts.

I hope your afternoon is good.

There is a lot going on at the moment @Captain24 I think you really need to show yourself some kindness and stop being so hard on yourself. I know this is really hard to do however.

I hope you are able to get the house cleaned.

Just cleaned all the toilets in my house. So much fun!!

If bed feels like the safest option then it might be a good idea then. Am sticking around here for a bit if you need to chat.

Wise words @Snowie. I agree. I'm sorry she said that to you @Captain24 . I think that was an awful thing to say.

Lots of hugs

x

Sorry your psychologist responded in that way @Captain24 that was not right.

the same thing happened to me last year. I was seeing some random psychiatrist at comm mh, had never seen him before. He told me how selfish I was for doing what I did… and a heap of other things. I stood up and left. My CM and psychologist said he was very much in the wrong and there was suppose to be some kind of follow up. But nothing. I’ve seen him a couple of times about the place, but I will never see him as a patient again.

saying that kinda stuff can do so much damage to a person that is already feeling so vulnerable. Hope you’re being kind to yourself and that it doesn’t do too much damage to your therapeutic relationship.

It was harsh @hanami @Bow. It was already what I was thinking, just hearing it said is what hurt the most.

Thanks for responding @Bow I know how difficult it would have been for you. I will just be careful with what I say to her for a little while. She did put me in touch with an ED dietitian though.

I did go to bed but I couldn’t sleep. I still have so much to do

I am struggling to process it @fluffylight. Now it is so much harder but I have to move forward. I keep hearing what she said over and over. It’s like it’s on a loop.

The gardening was me punishing myself but trying to do it in a healthy way.

I hope you have had a good day?

I feel alone @fluffylight. I’m just thankful for my CM. She is more supportive and understanding.

Thanks so much for being with me through it all. I’m sure it’ll get easier eventually.

Daylight savings does mess around with your body clock! My alarm goes off at 4:30 in the morning so I need to get use to it fast! Lol.

Did you do much today?