I can’t cope

Hahaha thought so @Jynx

I would have loved to learn to surf but I’m too old now. I’ve been paddle boarding but not recently as it means I need to make small talk with my cousins and I’m just not up for that. But I will be going swimming everyday. We are stay pretty close to a surf beach. I love diving through the waves!

One thing I did do there once was quad biking through the sand dunes. Oh and I did a scuba dive

Do you do any water sports?

@Captain24 mainly swimming for me too! I'm not into surfing, even though my dad loves it. Just never got the hang of it haha.

I also love wandering around the rock pools, spotting all the different wildlife. I've seen a blue ringed octopus once! And sea cucumbers a-plenty. If you've never done so, you should give one a little touch (just a little one, so as not to stress it out lol) - they are remarkably soft! Like stroking velvet haha.

Quad biking sounds super fun! I would love to do that some time. I've also been scuba diving before, it's so wild! Went in the Solitary Islands off the coast of northern NSW, so I got to see a grey nurse shark! Super spooky. They're like, the least aggressive shark ever so I was so fine with it. And sea turtles! I love them, they're so beautiful. Will you be going scuba diving again? Or snorkelling?

Quad biking was awesome! @Jynx

Where we are going isn’t really great scuba diving or snorkeling. When I did go though I had a wobbegong shark swim straight for me! Grey Nurse would be scary!

I want to do scuba diving up at the barrier reef.

Ill have a look around and see what rock pools Pix and I can climb down too

Wobbegongs are really cool hey, but kinda scary when they come at you! Aww sounds so, so nice @Captain24 I am really happy for you 😊 I can't wait to hear all about it!

I am off for tonight but another @moderator will be around soon if you need. Hope you have a restful night! 💜

Thank you so much for tonight @Jynx. I really appreciate it.

Hope you sleep well

@Captain24 I hope today goes a little better for you hon. Wishing you a good day 💌💌

T/W mentions suicide attempt.

Im sitting here waiting to see my psych. It’s the first time that I have seen her since my near fatal attempt. I’m scared to tell her and of her reaction. It’s a failure on my part.

I also feel very on edge right now. That’s not helping either.

All you can do is tell her the truth @Captain24

I think he only reaction is one of care and concern.

Sitting with you through your appointment.

I told her @Snowie.

She told me it was a selfish and inconsiderate action on my part. I should be thinking of Pixie and of what my dad is currently going through. They don’t deserve me putting them through that.

Im feeling really out of sorts now. I hate myself more than I already did. I didn’t think that was possible.

Im a really horrible person.

I'm happy that you spoke up and told her the truth @Captain24

I'm not happy about the way she responded. That part was cruel.

When we are at that point, it is hard to see a future, to see past that minute. Yes we might hurt others, but that is never our intention. I can't see what you did as selfish or inconsiderate.

Please know that what she said is just her view point. There are lots of people who would disagree with what she said, myself included.

Have you got any self care planned for this afternoon?