I can’t cope

Ask your prescribing doc or pharmacy to start staged dispensing @Captain24 .

I used to only get 3 days at a time. Then I graduated to 7 days. Now it's 2 weeks.

I was strictly told that if I took any extra, I'd have none for the next day.

The harder you make accessibility, the better it is for you. It will cause you to find other ways to soothe. Otherwise you keep going back to the most accessible method.

It's not that you can go out and buy more, but it means you need to put in the effort to do so. In that waiting time, you have surfed the urge without even knowing it.

I’m really sorry @tyme. Thanks for letting me get it out. You don’t deserve having to listen to it. You are a great person. I do appreciate you.

Maybe I can see the chemist and ask. It’s tough with my work roster trying to get there but it’s worth a try. I need something to help me.

I just can’t face anymore of today or

life. I think I should just go to bed. It’s just the safest thing.

Im so sorry for tonight.

Nah, don't stress @Captain24 ! You've had a big day! Well done on making it through!

I'm going to head off shortly too.

Have a great evening and maybe we can chat over the weekend at some point or mid next week 🙂

I’m on day shift for the next 2 days @tyme. So maybe Sunday night.

I’ve taken some prn. It’s suppose to be for anxiety so I’m hoping it stops me from shaking and I can get some sleep. I’m not meant to take it while I’m working because it’s an instant fail on a drug test. It is on my records at work though. Plus it makes you drowsy and you’re not suppose to operate heavy machinery.

Good night. I hope you sleep well.

Sorry again

@Captain24 hoping your work goes ok hon.

Thinking of you 💜💜

Work was hectic again and I nearly slid into a concrete barrier.

I drive like a manic in the way home. Excessive speeds. I’m not proud of myself. It was self destructive but I made it anyway.

I don’t want to continue with my life.

Home from work. It was an okish day.

Im not feeling well. It doesn’t help my mood at all.

How was work @Captain24 ?

It was ok @tyme. I did nail everything I did though so that’s a plus.

We had a BBQ for lunch today.

How was your day? When do you go camping?

Good on you. I'm smiling for you at the moment. It's so nice to see you online - honestly. I really miss our chats. I wish we could have more of them.

I'm going tomorrow. But I'm absolutely unprepared. I haven't packed anything apart from the kids' bikes and scooters..... @Captain24