I can’t cope

That makes a lot of sense @Jynx. You are very insightful. It also makes me realise that you care and know me even though you are in the other side of a screen.

I do have so much going on and I’m so alone in it all. I think that’s what is making me struggle. I can’t face it all. I don’t think I have the strength too. I just can’t cope with it all.

I feel really isolated, empty and numb. I have a massive desire to no longer continue. I know I should really talk to my team about it but I’m really scared. Im scared that they will lock me up. But at the same time I know I am a risk.

@Captain24 It warms me to know that my caring is felt 😊💜

Mm, might be worth considering for sure. At least letting your team know how much you're struggling, and that you really need more support would be a good start. I hope you're able to be open with them and it results in you getting what you need, without adding extra layers of stress too. 🤞

It’s over a week until I see anyone again @Jynx. Hopefully I can be honest.

I just had to stop myself part way through before it was too late again. It’s getting out of control.

I’m going to go to bed. It’s the safest place for me right now. I have nothing in my room to do anything with.

Thank you so much for your support and for caring. I really do appreciate it even if I don’t always show it.

Thank you too @fluffylight

We'll be with you every step @Captain24. Rest well hun, catch you real soon. 💜

Hope your ok this morning @Captain24 and hoping that today is a little bit better

Wishing you a great day today @Captain24

Sending lots of love 💗💗

Thank you @Bow @Snowie

Work was really tough today. I had a very scary situation, I thought I was going to roll the truck and I couldn’t move past it. After it I couldn’t do anything right. It has made me crash massively. I might have dealt with it better if I was in a better place

My anxiety is out of control and I can’t bring it down. Im already out of control.

Hope you both had a good day

@Captain24 oh gosh that would have been so scary!! I am sorry that happened, and that it's rattled you so much.

I'd stay and chat with you longer but I'm about to log off for the night. @tyme is still around though if you need.

Please be gentle with yourself. I'm sending you heaps of hugs hun 💜

Thanks @Jynx

Another night of fighting with myself. Im so done with everything.

Hope you have a good night.