I can’t cope

Glad you managed some sleep last night @Captain24

It sounds like you have accomplished so much today already. I hope you get what you want done today.

I'm sorry to hear that you are still struggling. It is hard work sometimes just to get through each day. Perhaps with some structure from work, it might just help a bit. You are worth the fight hon.

I'm going ok, just tired.

I don’t think I’m really worth being here @Snowie. I feel like everyone would be better off if I just went. Im just a problem and burden to too many people. No one would have to worry about me then. They could all just get on with their lives.

Im so glad you are doing ok. I hope you can get a decent nights sleep soon.

I know those thoughts and feelings @Captain24 are hard to sit with.

Is there anything nice you can do for yourself today or something to help with the thoughts?

Not really. I have a clean house and had a shower and washed my hair. Now I have to get the clothes off the line and iron them then I have to go grocery shopping.

I could do diamond art after I finish everything but I tried that last night and couldn’t focus. I can try again and put some music on.

There isn’t much I do for myself. I don’t know what else to try.

Im pretty useless.

Even just sitting down and having a cuppa @Captain24

Doesn't have to be anything big. Sometimes those small things are a win for us.

I’ve done everything other than todays ironing @Snowie.

Keeping myself busy has stopped me from doing anything to myself. It hasn’t stopped the urge though.

I hope today has been kind to you?

Hey @Captain24 just popping in to see how you're travelling. Agree with @Snowie - even the really small things count, and if you do plenty of the small things they can add up to have a bigger impact. Diamond art sounds perfect!

Here for ya hun 💜

You should be proud of yourself for doing so much today @Captain24

Don't blame you for not ironing, a very boring job!!

Have been in a lot of pain today. Going in for an endoscopy next week so hopefully get some answers.

Struggling big time @Jynx. I have managed to keep myself busy to try and distract myself but it hasn’t worked. I still have a massive urge that I’m trying to control. I’m exhausted now and it’s making it hard. Also I didn’t answer my door last night when someone knocked.

I hope today has been good for you.

Im sorry you are in pain @Snowie. Hopefully you get some answers with the endoscope.

My blood tests are back and my CM can’t give me the results but she did say that there is nothing to be concerned about. I see that as a reason to keep doing what I’m doing. Im medically ok so it doesn’t matter.

@Captain24 keep at it hun, I know it's hard. Got anyone you could talk to, reach out to? Maybe call n chat to the sane folks?

Lol I never answer the door, unless I am expecting someone. You're so fine to do so, you owe no one your time unless you desire it.

@Snowie fingers crossed for you as well hun 🤞