I can’t cope

I might watch a drama @amber22. I started watching the first Harry Potter when it came out on video and hated it. Im not really into that kind of thing though.

I like dramas and rom coms. Definitely a chick flick kind of gal.

Hey @Captain24 ,

Dropping in to say hi 🙂

Hi @tyme.

Good to see you.

Hope you have had a good day

Ooo that sounds good! I'm also a chick flick kind of gal, especially the old ones. I watched Bride Wars the other day and it was sooo good @Captain24

My day has been okay. Kids are a bit la la. I think they are tired because it is nearly the end of term. They aren't sleeping properly and just very needy @Captain24

Have you made any progress today?

I’ve seen that but a long time ago that I don’t really remember it @amber22. I’ve also been getting into Australian movies lately, especially the ones involving aboriginals. I have been learning a lot from them.

Ah is it nearly school holidays @tyme? It’s good you had an ok day. Im trying to hold hope that I can say that one day.

Ive really struggled. I did something really stupid last night but I lived to tell the tale. Im paying for it today though.

My CM appt was really hard today. Im borderline being medically admitted. She didn’t sugar coat anything. But I did do some grocery shopping for salad stuff today so I guess that is a little progress.

I do have to have an appt with my CM and dietitian together in 10 days. That’s going to be really daunting too. I feel like they are going to gang up in me. But my CM said that it’s to get on the same page.

She also gave me a lot of information on malnutrition and what it can do to me. I have seen some of the signs. Especially around my night vision. That’s not good considering the job I do on nightshifts.

That’s my day in a nutshell.

It’s been really tough

That sounds tough @Captain24 .

But it sounds like they care about you very much. At least they are looking after you. If you didn't work in with them, they'd probably just leave you be. They know recovery is a two way process.

You are in good hands, and you deserve it.

I hear it is so hard, but it's not impossible. I see you are trying.

It's good to see you popping in on other threads to give others peer support. That is therapeutic in itself @Captain24

They are pretty good @tyme. They have even gone over it all with my old CM so that she is up-to speed when she takes over in the middle of Sept.

I feel like I have let them all down. I didn’t tell my CM about last night though. If I did I wouldn’t be home now.

I will try and change and change my intake but it will be a slow process. I have to fight so hard and it’s exhausting.

It’s just all getting too much.

I’ve been around for selfish reasons. I know I’m a horrible person so I’m trying to change that too. Im always scared though, that I’m going to be my horrible self and say the wrong thing.