I can’t cope

I'm sure the hairdresser wasn't prying @Captain24 She was probably just making conversation and that small talk.

I hope Pixie's play date goes well and that seeing your CM also does.

You say there is nothing left, but you continue to keep on going hon. There is strength in our words. You continue to put one step in front of another.

Take care my friend 💕💕

Hope your appointment with your CM went ok @Captain24 its never ideal having to sit around and wait for them when they are late when we are already heaps anxious.

glad that you got to pamper yourself too, but yeah I hate the small talk at the hairdressers too! Probably why I don’t go. I just colour my own hair and have no idea when I hd a cut last.

I’m running on empty @Snowie

@Bow I don’t want Pixies boyfriend to come around but I can’t so no. I don’t want to have to make anymore small talk today.

I did get good news at my cm appt. My old cm is taking me back when this one leaves soon. That was so good to hear. Plus I really don’t have to fill her in on anything as they are already starting the handover, she has been through my notes and has asked about me over the last 3 months.

Also my old cm has finished the job she was doing so she is now more available. I hope this is a good sign.

Glad to hear that you can see your old CM again @Captain24 Hopefully that support can help.

You may be running on empty hon, but you are still running.

Now I’m home alone. @Snowie. Just me and Pix. It actually feels quite comforting to be able to just be. I don’t have to try to be anything other than how I’m feeling.

You have accomplished a lot today @Captain24 You should be proud of that.

Sometimes we just need some time to ourselves. I am glad you have got that now.

I’m trying to just sit in my episode. It’s not working. It’s not making me feel any better. The urges are coming in thick and fast.

@Captain24 I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment with urges. Have you been able to do some urge surfing? Please don't hesitate to reach out if you feel too overwhelmed by it hun 💜

I’m trying but I think they are too far gone. @Jynx. I’m sorry. I’m just a pathetic failure.

@Captain24 no matter what your brain is telling you, that is just simply not true hun. Are you going to be able to keep yourself safe tonight?