I can’t cope

You're not failing @Captain24 no matter what your brain says to you. And perhaps reaching out will help you - having someone be able to reassure you and sit with you in the darkness could do absolute wonders. Maybe just try to picture it... do you think anyone at SANE would just tell you you're failing or something like that? I would be shocked if anyone did that to you. I think you deserve to be able to talk to someone hey.

I just can’t face calling @Jynx. I can’t face anything. All I’ve got left is to go to bed. I am so useless. I am nothing. I am worthless. I’m not worth anyone’s time. I can’t face another day of this.

@Captain24 well fun fact - you don't get to decide whether or not you're worth my time, and I've decided you are very much worth every ounce of time that I get to spend with you. I hope sleep finds you swiftly, and if not then I will be here to keep you company in the meantime 💜

I’ve been laying in bed for 2 hrs. I am so tired. I am exhausted but I just can’t switch my thoughts off to sleep. @Jynx

@Captain24 I know that feeling too well. It's horrible isn't it? I'm so sorry it's happening to you.

Something I tend to do, is if I can't switch my brain off (which is never cos ADHD lol) I know that thinking about stuff from the real world will 100% keep me awake. So I think about fictional stuff instead. Pretend I'm in the universe from a favourite show, like running around in Middle Earth or something. If I find myself drawn back into thinking about stuff that's stressing me, I just say 'woop, nope, where was I up to' to refocus my mind on the stuff that doesn't matter, just stories and adventures and random fun. I dunno if that is helpful but it works for me.

If you wanna chat about anything to keep you occupied for a little bit, I'm here 😊

I tried it but I couldn’t fight my thoughts. @Jynx. There’s just so many and so loud.

I’ve just gotten up to take quite a few OTC pain meds to see if they will relax me enough.

Ive even had white noise going.

I just wanted some relief

Not too many I hope @Captain24?

Sometimes just the frustration of not being able to sleep can keep me awake. Maybe do some light activity - watch a little tv or some sketching or colouring in or something, give it an hour and then try again 🤞

I can’t answer that properly @Jynx

It might be a good idea to get up and try again. Maybe I’m just too over tired.

Im becoming really difficult.

Im sorry

I'll flick you an email to check in @Captain24

No sorry needed, you're not difficult hun you're struggling and deserve to have people supporting you. Overtiredness suuuuucks, so please give yourself a break 💜

I’m really struggling to face another day like this. I can’t keep going on. It’s just too hard.