I can’t cope

I’ve just gotten into bed @Snowie @amber22. I’m hoping I can sleep with all that’s running through my head.

Thank you both so much for this morning. I hope you both enjoy your day.

Safe travels @Snowie

Have a nice sleep, here if you need later on ❤️ @Captain24

I didn’t sleep very well @amber22 @Snowie. The dog next door barked all afternoon. I did have white noise that blocked it out but it only goes for 1.5 hrs. So when it stopped that’s all I heard so I had to start it again and again.

My sleep hasn’t lifted my thoughts at all. I just feel like I need to hurt myself badly. I am dreading going to work. But I have too.

I’ve responded @tyme. I’m heading off to work now.

Last night was hard @tyme. I’m still feeling the same today as yesterday. I still want to do the same thing.

I’ve woken up early so that’s going to make tonight really hard.

I really wish for things to improve but right now I can’t see it. I can only see one way. I am really scared.

Hey @Captain24 ,

It doesn't sound it is something that will go away overnight.

Are you working later today? Do you have anything planned that will keep you safe?

It's important that you reach out to someone if you feel those urges are too strong:

Lifeline 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/

Lifeline Text Support 0477 131 114 https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-text/

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/

Samaritans 135 247 https://thesamaritans.org.au/

If you feel you are in danger, please call 000.

We are here for you. You can do it.

I’m working tonight @tyme.

I know it won’t get better quickly but even just a little reprieve would be good. It’s all I was thinking about all night. I even made mistakes last night as I was thinking about it and working out how to do it.

Do you think you will be safe at work tonight? @Captain24 .

I’m really hoping so @tyme. I just hope I can concentrate better tonight. It is probably better to be at work than at home. I’m sure it’s safer there they stay here with my urges. I won’t deliberately do it at work.

Hey @Captain24 I'm around for this evening if you need anything 💜

Glad work can be a good distraction/safety option for you. I hope you're able to focus too - take some deep breaths for yourself any time things feel like a lot yeah? Let us know if things get hairy.