I can’t cope

Can understand @Captain24 I limit what I eat a lot too. I try and just keep my liquids up during the day.

Sometimes it is all that we can control.

I hope you are able to get some help with it soon.

Hi @Bow

Hoping you are feeling better 💛

What colour are you thinking?

xx

Hi @Captain24

Sitting with you and holding space for what comes up for you 💛

Here to chat 🙂

fluffylight x

Thanks @Snowie. I see my dietitian and GP in 2 and 1/2 weeks. Between it being the constant focus of my thoughts and all the depression warning sign’s returning I heading down a rocky slope.
But I guess, since my CM keeps saying I’m self-sabotaging, I deserve it.

Hi @fluffylight

Hi! @Captain24

How was walk with Pix?

Why do you feel you deserve this?

It's great that you know you're warning signs 💛

It's not self sabotage @Captain24 Your CM is wrong. It's not as if we decide to do these things to ourselves. There are many things that are out of our control.

I hope the next 2 1/2 weeks go quickly for you hon. It is hard when we have to wait to see our supports.

My CM is making so much so hard @Snowie. She’s the one that said I could do with losing a bit of weight. She leaves at the end of this month and then I get another random.

The person I need the most right now is my dietitian. She is fantastic. I know I have let her down though.

I see my psych on Tuesday so I will she if she can help. Even someone I can talk it over with. Even if it doesn’t change anything. Just someone to listen.

The walk with Pix was good @fluffylight. I’m trying to talk myself into putting on clean clothes to take her for another one. I should probably have a shower too.

My CM keeps saying it’s my fault so that why I guess I deserve it. Maybe if I was a better person, maybe if I was worthwhile, maybe if I wasn’t a waste of space, maybe if I wasn’t so useless then maybe I could recover.

It must be really challenging having thoughts coming up @Captain24

And that being said by you CM sounds really unfair. I'm sorry you are hearing those things.

You are worth taking a path of recovery no matter what stage you are at 💛

Do you listen to music when you take Pix for a walk? What do you walks consist of? 🙂

Perhaps getting a new CM might be helpful @Captain24 especially if your CM is saying the things she is.

Talking to your psych might be a good start hon. As you said, they might not be able to help, but at least they can listen. Just getting these things out can be helpful.

Walking Pix might be a good idea, so is a shower. Looking at your pictures, you have beautiful views whilst walking.