I can’t cope

Sitting with you my friend @Captain24 , here for you if you want chat

@hanami , @tyme xxx

I don’t know what has triggered it. I just feel really flat, miserable and dark. I can’t even talk as I just have nothing.

I think I’m safe at them moment.
@hanami @Shaz51

Hey @Captain24 I have just taken over for @hanami and I'm here with you tonight.

Thanks for letting us know you are safe 💝

So I just had a therapist appointment. I left feeling pretty flat. It’s the first time that I have left feeling that we accomplished nothing. I felt like I was a waste of her time. I do want to get better but maybe I’m not worth it and am just wasting everyone’s time. I have an app with the MH nurse tomorrow I’m not sure that I’m worth her time. Maybe I should just give up.

I started today off feeling pretty good too but that feeling has left now. Am I fighting a losing battle? Do I just give up?

Think I will go back to bed and try again.

Hi @Captain24

Sorry your appt didn't go well. Are you ok right now? Please let us know you're safe.

You are most definitely worthy of help. There is always hope. There is always hope these awful feelings will pass. Always.

Did you have the chance to express to your dr how you felt today?

sending hugs

Hanami

Im too agitated to sleep.
Do I deserve to be alive?
Why am I a waste of time?
Does this worthless feeling ever leave? Or is there only one way to stop it.

I am currently safe.. unfortunately

Dear @Captain24,

Sitting alongside and sending big hugs. You undoubtably not only deserve to be alive but to be happy and you will.

Please know that so many people care about you on the forums and we are wishing the best for you.

Warm hugs,

FloatingFeather

Hi @Captain24

Sorry you're feeling so down. As you know, Sane is not a crisis service so I'll put the relevant numbers for you to call below. Please reach out to them or your mental health team for support.

Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

or if it's an emergency 000.

Again, I'm sorry you're feeling this way and do hope things soon improve for you.

Hanami

I managed to calm down, after doing something to release the pain. I am ashamed of myself as it has been well over a week. But I did manage a nap afterwards and feel slightly better. I still feel like my life is worthless but the SI has eased.
@hanami

@FloatingFeather

I just have the need to get this out. I don’t need any response.

Feeling very very low, lonely, worthless and isolated. I don’t know how to lift myself out.